It was in an instant, so fast that I didn't know what was happening until it was too late. My entire world fell apart in only a few seconds; and it was my fault. Nothing mattered anymore, my happiness was gone and I couldn't think of a single reason to stay alive. Death: that's what ruined my life, and now that's what'll fix it. All rights go to BBC except for Astrid, Tobias, and the aliens I make up. ** trigger warning. There will be some suicidal things and common topics **