i just want to love you, why won't you let me?

The average person is led to believe college junior, Billie O'Connell lacks commitment, manners and even morals in some cases. The 21 year-old frequently tends to spend her time at parties, doing drugs of limited kind, or participating in hook-up culture. Her character is challenged one Monday morning at a cross walk, when a cane hits her leg. That cane just so happened to belong to Julia Morales, a younger woman currently learning to cope with losing her vision. Hesitant at first, Billie opens her heart and joins Julia in her journey. (G!P)

ɪ ɴᴏᴅ, ᴄʜᴏᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ʀᴇꜰᴜꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴄʀʏ ʏᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. "ꜰᴜᴄᴋ" ɪ ꜱʜᴀᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ "ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ɪᴍ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ" ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ʜᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ "ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴢʏᴀ? ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴡʜᴏ ᴍᴀɴɪᴘᴜʟᴀᴛᴇꜱ ᴍʏ ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴘᴜᴘᴘᴇᴛꜱ; ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀɪɴɢꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ, ᴍᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʙꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ, ʜᴏᴡᴇᴠᴇʀ, ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴇᴠɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜᴇʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴ ꜰɪᴄ.

"you don't think i'm weird because of my tourette's?"

In a recent interview, tired and mentally drained, world renowned music artist, Billie Eilish recalls being "lost in the darkness" as she rose to fame. Although Billie is hesitant to admit it aloud, the soft-spoken Czech interviewer sees right through her and believes that period of her life never truly ended. Haven been quickly emotionally attached, Billie can't seem to stay away from the older woman and has yet to figure out why...

"shut up with that!" billie said as she laughed loudly. "i dunno, bil... i'm just saying, i have a feeling that we're destined to fall in love." i shrugged with a lazy smile. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 10/22/2021 ended: 11/30/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅 #1 in #billie 5/2/2022 🏅 #4 in #billieeilish 11/22/2021 🏅 #6 in #lesbian 10/29/2021 🏅 #10 in #lgbt 10/30/2021 🏅 #10 in #lgbtq 10/30/2021 🏅 #13 in #girlxgirl 10/30/2021

Amanda is a Deaf demigirl who is lonely in the city she now calls home. Finally, someone has the patience to get to know them. 'why..loo...my....lip..' is all I can make out. She must have said, 'Why are you looking at my lips?' I hesitantly speak, not having used my voice in a while, 'I am reading them.' I use my best effort to use the correct sounds in my sentence so she can understand. When I say that, her face immediately softens and she looks at me apologetically. She is really pretty if I didn't already mention. * No smut, but some minor sexual references throughout the book Achieved #1 in billieeilish ??? Thanks wow (6/19/2021) • it's literally July 11th now and we are STILL in the top ten- Crazyyyy • ITS LITERALLY SEPFUCKINGTEMBER 20TH AND WE ARE NUMER 6 whyyy do you guys like this story so much • Hi I just completed the book and we're at rank 5. Thank you soooo much for voting!! I'm so glad you enjoyed the story :) (12/15/2021)

it's her. it has and always will be her. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== started: 9/1/2021 ended: 10/13/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅 #3 in #billie 9/22/2021

g!p "dude" billie scoffed. "we're just friends, why do you care so much?" "because friends don't go sneak around and do the things we do!" i cried. "can't you tell that i like you?" "well... don't" she shrugged while turning around to leave.