Chapter 1. No one feels my pain. I'm sitting here... At my boyfriend's funeral. I'm crying my eyes out. The pain is so unreal. I never thought this would happen so soon. I just want him back. I need him back. My life was so perfect with him in it.. And now he's gone. My heart is shattering into a millions pieces over and over again. I keep praying that this is a dream. But I know it's not... It's my turn to speak and I'm not sure if I can keep it together. "Uhh.. Hello.. I'm John's girlfriend.., Jessica I never thought this would happen so soon... John told me that he would marry me. He knew for a fact that he would marry me. I know we're young... But he proposed twice. Of course I said yes because I was in love with him.. And yes, I still am. My heart feels so heavy right now.. Ever since I found out,I've been so depressed. He was my best friend. I don't want to believe this is real. Because in my head, it's not. We were so perfect for each other. I miss him.