It was all too much. Everything. It was all out to get me, it was all too much. My family is going to hate me. My friends are going to hate me. The entire fucking world is going to hate me. He is going to hate me. I sat on the cold tile floor, a pool of blood dripping from my wrists. Today was probably the worst it's ever been; because of him. I love him, and that's just the issue. He is a him. He likes girls, the beautiful modelesque Los Angeles girls. Not me. Not his best friend, the one he can always confide in. Not the one who he relies on. Not the one who has always been there, through heartbreak or sickness. Not the one who has traveled the globe beside him and the rest of the band. Not the one who is secretly gay and loves him, who he will never love back. All I'll ever be is the best friend. The one who is too afraid to come out. Who cuts because of it. The one who doesn't have the strength to say three simple words of "I love you". Until I gather the courage to say those words, which may never happen, the physical pain will suffice as an alternate of the emotional. I deserve to be punished or even put to death. I'm a coward and I'm weak. I live a good life, an amazing one even, yet I will never have the strength everyone else has. I just need strength. I just need him.

read it, I bet you'll hate it;) *trigger warning inserted here*

jack avery • "are you gonna ride or are you just gonna stand there like an idiot?" "there's a little problem, i can't skateboard..." • zach herron 01|#jachary|05.16.18 02|#jachary|05.10.18 01|#donah|12.07.18 01|#jacharyhavery|01.13.19 01|#zaniel|10.09.20 completed - under editing started: 03.15.18 finished: 12.24.18

[𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕] WHY DONT WE ! - written by faith!

17-year old Daniel Seavey goes to high school with a particular mysterious boy. When he finds out this strange boy's secret, he realizes they aren't so different. All of the sudden he feels consumed by the want to have this particular boy, but so many obstacles are in his way. Will he get past them to be with him? Or will the obstacles pull him down under?

𝒊𝒏 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒄𝒉 zach herron adds the wrong number to a groupchat

in which zach had wet dreams about jack, his best friend. started: 01/09/19 finished: 10/21/19

⋆.*✰༄𝗭𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗛 ❝If you love two people at the same time, choose the second; if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second. ❞ A story in which Zach finds a forbidden romance with his new roommate, Jonah. Started: 06.23.18 Completed: 12.01.18 Copyright © 2018 by @dolanschonce

jack found some porn magazines at zach's bedroom. jack thought it was normal to have them for a 17-year-old boy. what he did not expect was gay porn. and even less that he would like it. started: 08/29/18 finished: 01/17/19

[wdw bxb][completed] where jack finds out how hard it is to be a unicorn. - august seventh twenty eighteen august twenty-seventh twenty eighteen © ADRIFTAVERY