It was all too much. Everything. It was all out to get me, it was all too much. My family is going to hate me. My friends are going to hate me. The entire fucking world is going to hate me. He is going to hate me. I sat on the cold tile floor, a pool of blood dripping from my wrists. Today was probably the worst it's ever been; because of him. I love him, and that's just the issue. He is a him. He likes girls, the beautiful modelesque Los Angeles girls. Not me. Not his best friend, the one he can always confide in. Not the one who he relies on. Not the one who has always been there, through heartbreak or sickness. Not the one who has traveled the globe beside him and the rest of the band. Not the one who is secretly gay and loves him, who he will never love back. All I'll ever be is the best friend. The one who is too afraid to come out. Who cuts because of it. The one who doesn't have the strength to say three simple words of "I love you". Until I gather the courage to say those words, which may never happen, the physical pain will suffice as an alternate of the emotional. I deserve to be punished or even put to death. I'm a coward and I'm weak. I live a good life, an amazing one even, yet I will never have the strength everyone else has. I just need strength. I just need him.

Zach has been mute almost his entire life, never has said a word and has always been the new kid. This all changes when he meets 4 young boys, one in particular, who changed his life forever.

Zach Herron realizes that he has feelings for Jack Avery, but Jack also has been having some feelings Zach also, but neither of them know that they both have feelings for each other. Read for more information.

read it, I bet you'll hate it;) *trigger warning inserted here*

It was a normals day until one bad incident happened and changed everything. Aura was a normal girl until she got into an accident and lost her memory and could not remember anything. She lived into the woods until one family changed everything for her

Zach knew he was gay, and knew it would be a long trip of telling people about it, and working out his feelings for one of his best friends. What will happen? Will Zach end up with who he truly loves? Highest Rank: #131 in Fanfiction 2/6/18 Ranked #1 in Jachary 5/10/18 Started: October 13, 2017 Ended: February 12, 2018 "This book is an emotional rollercoaster that leaves you screaming but you can't turn away." - LaBellaMac "This book is just amazing! It's full of happy, sad, funny, cute, cool, and many more emotions but I just can't stop reading!! It's one of my favorite books right now and I always get really excited when you update it!! Keep working on it cause I love it so much!!" - Izzy_bizzy36 "I love this book so much and I definitely recommend it to any Jachary shippers out there especially if you like a bit of drama. I love it so much." - wdwxjackx

AHHHHHH ITS #2 IN FANFICTION (nkt anymore but it was) Jake and Logan Paul's little sister decided that she was done living with her parents, so she moved to Logans house. Everything was great, until she meet the Why Don't We boys, and she caught feelings for one of them, or all of them.

woot woot revamp may come soon (;

zach herron • "i love the rain." "i hate the rain." • jack avery completed - under editing started: 10.13.17 finished: 03.13.18

read to find out (: