Izaya gets stabbed while traveling through Ikebukuro on business. Shizuo finds him stumbling through an alley, and Izaya's secrets are quickly discovered. Hate turns to love in a complex series of events and recovery. Shizaya Tw: self harm, depression, panic attacks, gore, and violence

{TBH probably sounds like basic sad Shizaya shit} Izaya Orihara hadn't been seen in months which had really put Shizuo in a good place until one rainy night he stumbles upon Izaya, going to confront him he realizes things are not what they seem.

For the first time ever Shizuo tells off a certain information broker instead of killing him, the bodyguard goes home thinking his harsh words had no effect on Izaya. How wrong he was.

Hehe, you must have to read! Warning - Suicidal Thoughts. Self Harm. Gruesom language. Gore here and there maybe. Please nobody take offence to this! This does deal with depression, and Suicide. Of you ever find yourself in this kind of mental state, get help.

How can you look Death in the face, when you never believed in him in the first place. Healing begins when you realize that you are not alone.

Izaya has an abusive father who forces Izaya to live with him and only lets him out to work. Izaya puts up with it just to protect his family. Shinra is the only one who knows, and is Izaya's best friend. Shizuo of course, is Izaya 's hopeless crush who goes too far one day and causes the flea's mask to crumble, revealing a face littered in huge, ghastly scars.... This is my first fanfic, so please do not eat me alive!! DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN DURARARA!! OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS!! Nor do I own the cover art. Literally none of this is mine except for the obsessive fanfic writing. That's it

Izaya was walking in the streets of Ikebukuro. The streets he was forbidden to walk by his arch-nemesis. Izaya didn't mind at the time. But, what happens when Shizuo hits him and doesn't know Izaya was beat up pretty bad? What burden will be put on Shizuo's shoulders? ---------------------- Disclaimer: I do NOT own Durarara! (DRRR!) This is yaoi, bxb, so on so on.

Concerned for his best friend, Shinra called his only other constant companion (other than his beloved Celty, of course) to keep an eye on him. Discreetly and with many many favors in his corner. But how will Shizuo feel when he sees the state his 'nemesis' is in? How will Izaya feel when when Shizuo begins to play caregiver? How will Ikebukuro react when the impossible happens?

"Everything's going to be okay." That's what I always told him. Jun was this guy who's cold towards literally everyone and I'm the only one who's close to him. He's always rude to people because there's something that no one knows except for me. Towards me, Jun let's his emotions out that easily, and I always assure him that everything will be okay. I was his smile, because he barely smiles or laughs. But we had to separate...Jun had to leave, and from that day, I smiled, yes, but not as much as I did when he was with me. I always said that the best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer someone else up. And so that's who I am, the always smiling Katsumi, everyone knew me by that. When me and Jun met again, he was a changed man...he smiled more, and talked more. And even more surprising, he became some sort of celebrity, an actor. That's when I started thinking..."Guess I'm no longer his smile..."

Izaya questions all he ever works and lives for. Then when finding the answer he looses himself completely. Spiraling into a depression he can't pull himself out of. He laughs at himself when found at his lowest point by the last person he wanted to be seen by Warning// deep fanfiction. Trigger warning for some people don't like don't read. Thank you