Evan always tried to hide his flowers. It was pointless, almost everyone had them, but their flowers were bright yellows and pinks that made them look like walking flower bouquets. His were dark colors - blacks, reds, browns, and purples - that made him look morbid and intimidating. And his flowers stood for the worst things too. While Jared was covered in bright pink flowers that meant heartbreak, Evan had a huge, red, zinnia on the back of his neck that meant depression, dark purple irises on his arms, legs, and face that meant bruises, and black flowers lining his wrists meaning self harm. There were almost 47 black flowers. He hated it, being marked as the kid who was supposed to fall in love with a depressed psychopath. It didn't help that his anxiety would spike at the worst possible times, causing him to trip and stutter at the worst times. • Connor didn't choose to be born with depression, a feeling that started at the back of his neck and just seemed to grow. He didn't choose to be covered in burns and bruises from his abusive father, and he didn't choose to have a bright blue flower on the palm of his hand that symbolized anxiety. He wanted to end it all - the pain, the humiliation, the fucking flower that would grow at the worst possible times. He hated how everything that happened to him would affect his soulmate. Only he deserved to feel that pain.

Connor and Evan didn't know each other aside from a few altercations here and there. But on the first day of senior year, Evan sees something inside Connor that he didn't notice before... and it causes him to feel something 'different'. When Connor commits suicide Evan is left devastated, only to visit the anxious boy as a ghost. •Quotes• 'He just seemed so hurt, but he's looked that way before did I just not notice it? My stomach feels strange when I think about it, and I really want to talk to him. It's just Connor though...' Evan sighs once he decides that there's no solution to this enigma. "Agh!!!" Evan lurched up and threw every pillow off the bed in frustration, "Connor! What did i do to you!?!?" Evan sobbed harder. "I-I was just saying what I wished we did before you died,"

"That sounds familiar. My friend online says that a lot." Connor and Evan both know each other through their screen names, and outside of their blogs and chats, they don't know anything about one another. Not even that they've been texting. - [includes all characters. general tw: disfunctional family, mental illness, drug use and rebellious behavior. Specific tws will be before each chapter if it's used heavily or it's not apart of this list, which isn't often] Open to constructive criticism and opinions!!

COMPLETED! (SWEARING, SELF HARM, SELF HATE, ATTEMPTED SUCIDE, HOMOPHOBIC SLURRS AND ANXIETY ATTACK WARNING) First day of senior year! What could be better? (Stop looking at me like that, Connor, it was sarcasm!) Evan was nervous. Extremely nervous. He looked around the school lockers. Who was that boy with shoulder-length way brown hair, a black jacket and jeans? He saw him somewhere. He knew he did. Connor hated school. Absolutely hated it. School was hell. But, something is different about this year. It has something to do with that cute-no not cute-boy with blond short, a light blue polo shirt and khakis. Has he seen him somewhere before?......Definitely. (Cover is not mine! I don't know who made it, but it is awesome!)

Evan Hansen is an anxious teen. He constantly feels alone and panic attacks are a normal things. He goes to a therapist, but it doesn't really help. In reality it just makes him seem even more different from other students at his high school. Soon, all of this changes though, when he meets someone who would change his life forever. Connor Murphy.

(Theatre kids AU, includes Heathers :))

"y-you won't give u-up on me, right?" "you're my soulmate, darling. i will always fight for you. always." *** in this world, when you meet eyes with your soulmate, the world bursts into color. in new york city, connor murphy is unwillingly trudging across a busy street towards the penthouse in manhattan that his father has purchased for the murphy family to move to, when suddenly, he meets eyes with a stranger. unexpectedly, he can notice that the stranger's eyes are blue, clear, and anxious. and then the stranger is tugged into an alley way and disappears. this follows connor's journey to find the soulmate that changed his life in a second, and then, in the next second, was gone. *** lowercase intended trigger warnings are listed before the chapter begins

A story in which Evan falls and Connor offers to go with him. (I found this picture on google, and I have no idea whose it is. I take no credit for it whatsoever.) (I own none of the characters, just the plot.) Trigger warning: anxiety, suicide, suicidal thoughts, depression, self harm. It isn't always rainbows and sunshine up in here. But there's lots of fluff and cuteness, like pancakes and pillow forts. Just you wait I have plans :)

Here's how it works, I have a list of aus... The list: 1- Floating hearts (This one now has a book of its own) 2- Mermaids (Connor glows in the dark, Evan can camouflage) 3- A different musical (It's supposed to be Legally Blonde, but I changed stuff) 4- Disney 5- Soulmates (Can be any soulmate au, sans the one with the colors) 6- Ballet dancer 7- Famous music star and person who doesn't know them 8- Superhero and vigilante (+An important discussion) 9- Spies (*plays the classic 007 theme*) 10- Apocalypse (Inspired by a work of mine that never saw the light of day) Those are the only aus I'm going to work with, I might do more than one one-shot per au if I get inspired. If anyone wants an explanation on one I'll provide it as best as I can. I'll tell you which au you're reading.

"You know Connor, you look great in black, but i like you better in red." {} Evan is has social anxiety and is dealing with suicidal thoughts. Connor is dealing with a self harm and drug addiction while also having suicidal thoughts. The world is dark, pitch black even, but maybe they could find a small glow of light in each other.