Lying on your bed. Looking at the ceiling. Thinking about where did everything go wrong. Each night has been a remembrance of what you are ----lonely and empty. Life is neither a lap-of-luxury nor a tale of rainbows and unicorns ----this is what people have learned as they get older. At the age of 8, children want to grow faster believing that freedom lies with age. At 20, young adults start to get lost. They stand in the middle of somewhere called lost and forgotten. Who knew they will get tired at their age? In 30's, people think they are running out of time. Everyone seems like settling down. Success has been on other people's spoon except for them. At 40, responsibilities keep piling up. It goes from the beginning with its ending unknown. Life continues at 50, 60, 70 and so on. Time to compare what they become to what they wish to be when they were younger. Aren't we all lost? Lost in love, in pain, in regrets, in emptiness, and in what ifs brought by varied wars we are battling with. In the end, what's more painful than loneliness? Isn't it the feeling of emptiness? How it made you feel so free, so light floating like a vest in vast ocean yet feeling so small, so little, so useless in every step you take on the ground. Pick up your armor of courage, wear your clothe of bravery, arm yourself with faith, and shoot them with your true self. You'll win this battle because you're a warrior ready to conquer wars inside you. ---- Date Started: 05-07-20 Date Ended: 05-16-20 Book Cover: Ukiyoto Publishing House

dust-filled bones and ink flooding my veins. © pretendyoumissme | 2020

☕︎| 𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒆𝒅 1ˢᵗ 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒖𝒉𝒂 • 𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒆𝒅 1ˢᵗ 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒌𝒐𝒕 • 𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒆𝒅 1ˢᵗ 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒖𝒍𝒂 • 𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒌𝒆𝒅 2ⁿᵈ 𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒂𝒘𝒊 "Ito ay tula, Para sa ating mga luha, Para sa ating mga problema, Para sa ating nadarama." 𑁍|𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗱 @2019, 𝗯𝘆 𝙏𝙃𝙉𝙈𝙍𝙈𝙍𝙉

A girl woke up at 2am and decided to drown her thoughts before it drowns her.

100 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Commit Suicide. #FreeMentalIllness

❝We all are addicted to something that ruins us.❞ Just some powerful quotes that I found and compiled them into a book. Highest rank; #1 in Poetry (straight #1 from March 16, 2016 - April 18, 2016)

❝Maybe things don't happen for a reason. Maybe we're just grasping for ways to make sense of the chaos around us. Maybe we're giving meaning to things that have no meaning. Maybe we're clinging to hope so hard that we forget about reality. What if we're wrong and nothing is meant to be? We're just souls wandering endlessly, desperately seeking comfort from the notion that things will work out in the end no matter what. What if we've tricked ourselves into believing that everything will be okay in the end just so we don't have to face the reality that maybe it won't?❞ Collections of thoughts compiled by Aestrophilia. Sequel to 'The Wrong Side of Right'

Tides are always changing The sun and the moon arranging Beauty and destruction Like a artistic production Its all in the journey of riding the tide of life First place winner at the We are writers awards. Copyrighted,All Rights Reserved

•Exulansis: the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it •Sciamachy: a battle against imaginary enemies, against your own shadow. •Eccedentesiast: a person who fakes a smile For some people, this is how we cope with life. In three words, how we live is described. But I'm here to make sure our story is described with more words. More feeling. I'm here to make sure you know that you're not alone and your life can be described in more than three words. Words that make you feel like the sun is kissing you in the middle of winter, which is Apricity. Words that make the storm your living in feel like a light drizzle of rain, which is Sirimiri. Words that go into your ear sounding like wind against trees, which is Psithurism. I'm an addressing Numinous (describing experiences that make you fearful yet awed.) So here is my gift to you, my adoxography (beautiful writing of a subject little talked about). Here are my poems. Highest rankings- •#48 in poetry 12•16•17 •#36 in poetry 12•..•17 •#32 in poetry 1•10•18 •#26 in poetry 1•13•18 •#14 in deep poems 6•21•18 •#2 in deep poems 1•3•19 •#9 in deep poems 2•4•19 •#10 in deep poems 3•28•19 •#4 in deep poems 4•27•19 •#1 in deep poems 4•30•19 •#8 sad poems 8•19•20 •#1 sad poems 2•1•21 Trigger warning , deep topics talked about stay safe loves

Darling, to be Perfect Is simply not real. True tellings of domestic abuse in poetical form. This is the true story of a Fairy-Girl. By, The Fairy Queen #poetry- 13 #poembook- 2 #spokenword- 1 #10,000 reads 10/01/20