My name is Ryle Paolo Santiago and I'm inlove with my best friend. But before him, let's talk about me. I am 19 yrs. old and I live in Amsterdam, Netherlands. I came here when I was 7 yrs. old when we used to live in the Philippines, I don't even know how to speak tagalog anymore, and a few months later my parents found out I was gay. They didn't accept me, my dad would get home and beat me up and mom would embarrass me in front of our family. That was the start of all the pain and the feelings. Then when I was at the park I met him. Ronnie Alonte. A jock, the first guy I fell in love with. He already knows I was gay. And then he told the whole school that who ever bullies me will have to go through him first. It has been 6 years since we stayed like this. Every time I open up that topic he closes it. I have been showing him how much I love him. And then I met his cousin.

"Paano ba naging ganito? Ang intensyon ko lang naman sana ay tumakas. Bakit ba naging ganito ang kinalabasan? Bakit ba ako pumayag? Ano ba itong pinasok ko?" Si Frele Fortis, isang literature editor at ang president ng Fortis Publishing Company, ay tumakas mula sa kanyang foster family. At dahil doon ay may nakilala siyang isang lalaki na inalokan siya ng isang proposal na magbabago ng buhay niya.

Tama bang gawing rason na hindi sapat ang pagmamahal mo para iwan mo ang isang taong handang gawin lahat para saiyo? Tama bang gawing tanga ang isang taong handang masaktan para lang makamtan ka? Tama bang isakripisyo mo ang lahat sa taong hindi man lang makita ang halaga mo? "Hindi ako takot sa mga babaeng umaaligid sayo. Takot ako sa babaeng, minahal mo ng sobra. Bago ako."

Nag kagulo na't lahat lahat.. kayo rin pala sa bandang huli.

Normal lang may CRUSH. Ang crush ay parte sa buhay natin. Dito nagsisimula ang pagibig sa isa't isa. Sabi nila, ang walang crush abnormal. Pero, totoo ata e kasi lahat naman tayo may puso hindi lang ang saging. Karamihan sa atin may crush na celebrity, classmate, friend o kaya naman stranger. Kahit walang pag-asa, push lang. Yan ang problema sa atin. Kung may crush ka, basahin mo to. I'm sure makakarelate ka. ENJOY!