Dan is different. He's learned to accept that. Well, as best he can anyway, considering he's never really had much of a choice. It's been this way for as long as he can remember, the constant runaround process of trying to feel normal. His life is built around it, trying to trick both himself and everyone he interacts with into seeing him as your average person. The isolation as he desperately tries to keep others from finding out, the bitterness that wells up inside of him each and every time he's reminded that he'll never be like everyone else, the fear that nothing will ever change. He's fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. Isolation can only go so far though, so when he's struggling to make ends meet and he's faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. It doesn't seem so easy ten failed roommates into the process, or when he sits down at a table to meet with prospect number eleven and ends up with a coffee spilled all over his lap. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he's been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in. Neither of them have any way of knowing just what they've gotten themselves into as they shake on the matter, but time will tell.

Meet Dan and Phil. The boys are roommates at university, Phil being the quiet one with stage freight and Dan is the loud, outgoing one. Phil prefers his books. Dan prefers his band. Phil is good in school. Dan is good at beer pong. The two are completely different and rarely communicate, so when the lead singer of Dan's band drops out, he becomes desperate and has heard Phil singing one too many times. Then suddenly Phil is a part of the band and they're sleeping in a bus on a worldwide tour. [rated R for drug/alcohol use, sexual references and language]

❝ hi dan! ❞ ❝ go away, phil. ❞ phan au. © 2017 main ; @urnasti

**mentions of depression, anxiety, self harm, suicide, and swearing**

COMPLETE This is going to be a one sentence book thing, I don't know the username of who does it but I actually love them, she inspired me :) And randomly for bigger explainations, I'm going to have longer paragraphs because wattpad only takes a certain amount of chapter things I don't know what I'm doing honestly, so, just bare with me :) "But I'm not gay." So you thought Danny So you thought

I wrote this when I was 13 and I'm so embarrassed of it, I wanna delete this story so bad because it's actual trash but so many people like it so I'm keeping it up. I'm so sorry I wouldn't bother reading this my writing has improved so much. Philip Lester didn't believe in Love. Until He did. Daniel Howell loved love. He couldn't wait to meet his soul mate. Little did he know his soul mate was right in front of him. Warnings⚠️ Self harm mention, rape attempt, abuse, sexual content, and death Punk!Phil and Pastel!Dan Side Pairings: Kickthepj, Fack, Jyatt and Sophia Lillis and Jeremy Taylor Started: August 7th 2018 Ended: September 29th 2018

Here's Dan's fanfic for people who want to just read it. Nothing belongs to me. This fanfic was written by and belongs to Dan Howell.

Dan Howell had been at a Catholic school all of his life. He ate, breathed and lived as a good Christian boy should. However, it didn't fit him, he didn't feel right promising himself to a God he didn't fully believe in. With countless rules Dan wasn't sure he could live his life to eternally, he starts to wonder if this life is his, or his parents. Suddenly, as he begins to doubt everything he's ever been taught, a reformer is brought to St Patricia's, somebody who has the power to change everything; as cliche as it sounds. Dan begins to feel things he ought not to as a good Christian boy, but not every rule is okay to be broken. (triggers: religion, [like a crap ton, there will be good religious people and bad there will be representation of both trust me], death, homophobia, mild bodily harm [not self inflicted], boy x boy [legit what did you expect tho]) {additional trigger warnings will be added as the story progresses as I don't have it figured out lol whoops}

Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

Beating hearts. Sliced skin. Shallow breaths and a feeling of love. That was what we were. "You had a heart made of glass and eyes that only saw stars. You were a canvas soaked in color. Vivid memories and passion saturated your bones. You made me feel."