Don't Hold Me Back (Langst)

Don't Hold Me Back Langst *TRIGGER WARNING SELF HARM, DEPRESSION, TORTURE, REJECTION, ETC. DO NOT READ IF YOU GET EASILY TRIGGERED* I'm no good here. I'm just not ready for war. I just want this to be over. They wouldn't miss me if I was gone. But I try, I truly do, I try to be a good Paladin. And a Good Friend. But...