I always wondered how it feels like to be rich. How it feels like to walk with a luxury bag clinging on your arm. How it feels like to have jewelries to make you shine. Maybe I am ambitious. Maybe I am materialistic, because I never experienced having any of it. I needed to work for myself. I needed to support my study because I have no one. I don't have anyone to support me that's why I didn't know how to act and how to grow myself as a person. No one guides me to the right path. No one is there for me. I am always alone. That's why when I meet this rich handsome man, I did everything to get close to him. I flirted with him. I tried to catch his attention. In short, nagpapansin ako. All I thought, kapag malapit na kami sa isa't isa mararanasan ko na ang magandang buhay pero hindi e. Mas lulubog pa pala ako sa kaniya. Mas babagsak pa pala ako. Luluha lang pala ako at masasaktan. Bakit kaya hindi umaayon sa akin ang tadhana? Why did it choose to give me bunch of challenges and problems and not happiness? Kahit saglit lang. Kahit patikim lang ng saglit na kaligayan. Gano'n ba kahirap ibigay sa akin iyon at kailangan pang ipagdamot sa akin?

Healing is such a long process to do. You will start to ask why things didn't turn out the way you wanted. You will start to ask when did the things start to go wrong. You will start to ask what will you do to get up and how will you complete yourself again. There are so many questions in life that you will start to seek for answers whenever you are on this process. I, honestly, don't know what happened to my life. I am rich. I have everything that I need in my life. But, why did I end up this way? Why did I end up being the most pathetic and broken person that I've ever known? All I want is just a pure love- a true love. A love that will be with me for the rest of my life. All I want is just that simple thing... But why can't I have it? Love is scary. The first and last time that I experienced it, I broke myself; I lost myself in the midst of loving someone. That's why I told myself that I won't ever take a risk again when it comes to love. I will never love anyone again. I will never open my heart again to anyone. But what if I'll meet the man that will help me to open my heart? The man that will show me how does true love really feels like? Am I going to take risk? Am I going to open my heart for him? Or I'll just keep myself a prisoner of my own past? Can I really trust him? Or he's just another walking nightmare? That's why I asked him if he can see my broken heart?

Fate. What is fate? According to my research, it is to be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way. Iyon na ang dapat na mangyari e-nangyari na e. May magagawa pa ba? It is what it is kaya tatanggapin na lang? Para bang kahit anong mangyari sa buhay mo, wala ka nang magagawa. Iyon ang nakatadhana, iyon ang dapat na mangyari, iyon ang nakasulat sa libro ng buhay mo kaya wala na. Tanggapin mo na lang. I was born rich. Nakukuha ko ang lahat ng gusto ko-kailangan ko man o hindi. My attitude and personality was already rotten that nobody can tame me except for the man who introduced himself as my fiancee. If my parents were both heartless for me, he isn't. Ako lagi. Ako muna bago ang iba-bago siya. But, the story of my life isn't favor of me. From being proud and arrogant, I became pathetic. Good thing that I have him. He is always the shoulder that I always have to lean on. He is like my guardian angel for taking care of me. Siya lang talaga ang may kayang umunawa sa akin. Siya lang talaga ang nag-iisang umiintindi sa akin. That's why I kept on asking him, why - why does he love me so much?

Ayon kay Lao Tzu, a Chinese philosopher, be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you-na siyang isinasabuhay ko. I only have my mother and my two friends, Charlynn and Reisha. My mother works for Charlynn's family. We are not really poor and definitely we're also not rich but we're living comfortably. Nevertheless, I am contented with my life. But, after meeting the man that I like, I started to dream for more. I started to ask for more just to equal his riches even though I know for sure that it was impossible. Life is meaningful. Full of life lessons, full of challenges, and battles that you need to surpass. Pero no'ng nawala sa akin si Mama, iyon ang hindi ko kinaya. Sinisi ko sa lahat ang pagkawala niya. Nagtanim ako ng galit sa pamilya na tinuturing kong pangalawa kong pamilya. And he was there, just accepting my wrath. But, what if everything that I believed was all a lie? Paano kung lahat ng sinisi ko, maling tao? Would I be able to get to his life again? Or our memory will remain just like how we first met? Dark.