Ryan Ross was a guitar player in a small band called Close Corners, and by small, he meant that they played sold out shows every night and toured the world. He was a shy guy, he only ever opened up to the people he was close to. He was sensitive and sweet, and none of the things Brendon Urie was. Brendon was a fucking model. He had been on the cover of almost every magazine in the world, either for his amazingly handsome face or for a story about one of his outrageous parties. He was a Hollywood bad boy, and people latched on to him left and right. He went through boyfriends like he went through toilet paper. I guess that's why the world pulled their attention to the two boys when They were spotted as a couple in a small club. Everything kind of just blew up from there.

"you know this stuff is for girls, right?" "fuck off dude." - lol ryan buys scented hand sanitizer and brendon makes irrelevant remarks because he's a werid little shit. !DISCLAIMER! i wrote this book before i educated myself on transgender rights and such so this book is slightly cisnormative and i'm sorry.

Four years, many exes, a couple of albums, a band split and a band hiatus... a lot has happened since Ryan Ross walked away from Panic! At The Disco. Trying to get lost and forget his feelings for Brendon Urie isn't a walk in the park. So when he comes back to right some wrongs and hope to mend the bridges he burned, is four years enough time for them to make amends - or further their problems?

Brendon hates Ryan. Ryan hates Brendon. They often have sex. Which shows how much they hate each other and hear this, most of the time they are completely sober and are fully aware of their actions.