It's not about living forever, it's about living with yourself forever. || book one of one || An original and alternate MCU story that incorporates parts of Captain America: Civil War, Avengers: Age of Ultron and Marvel movie references throughout. start: 13th june 2016 finish: -- © juxtaposing

❝Just know that from this point on, whatever happens, I'll be with you. I'm not gonna leave your side until you tell me to.❞ . . .in which she helps him find his way back to himself. [BOOK ONE] [Highest ranking: #1 in MCU/fanfiction as of 5/26/18]

"Who am I?" Was the only question running through Winter's mind. "Am I still the Winter Soldier?" She paused, "Or am I Avery Rogers?" Memories start to trickle in, but she doesn't know what is real and what is not. How can she tell? How can she determine who she was and who she is now? How will she know? There is both a beginning and an end, but which will she catch first? ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ The Evolving Winter Series 1- Alive but not Awake [Revision of Captain America: The Winter Soldier] 2- Saviours [Revision of Avengers: Age of Ultron] 3- Shattering Relations [Revision of Captain America: Civil War] [BOOK 4+5 titles TBD] The Alternating Lines of Avery Rogers 1- Alive but not Awake [Revision of Captain America: The Winter Soldier] 2- Everlasting Bond [Revision of Captain America: Civil War] [BOOK 3+4 titles TBD]

[Post CA:TWS] She was his target. His mission. His only goal was to kill her. But she seemed harmless. He felt it was wrong to kill her. He made a different call. He saved her instead ~~~~~~~~~~~~ "There was a man, he was sent to kill me. I was a threat to- to HYDRA... the man had killed my mom. But I didn't hate him for it. I wasn't angry at him, I didn't want him dead... I wanted him to be somewhere safe. Somewhere somebody could care for him... I wanted to be the person that cared for him. But he wouldn't let me."

Maggie Dornwall was a simple girl. Growing up in Brooklyn with an abusive stepdad, she met two boys who would become her best friends and protectors. Steve Rogers and James Barnes. What will she do when James is shipped off to war and Steve becomes Captain America? Will she follow the boys after falling in love with one of them? Or will she have to say goodbye forever to her childhood pals? "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away." Entered for #Wattys2016 Cover by: @buckstan

Ava Rogers, sister to Steve - the lover to Bucky Barnes. She fell from an impossible height out of a moving Hydra train back in 1945, Steve and Bucky believed her to have died a long time ago - but, what if they were wrong and she was still walking around? She doesn't have her memory of them, but she goes by a new identity - The Winter Solider. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ The Evolving Winter Series 1- Alive but not Awake [Revision of Captain America: The Winter Soldier] 2- Saviours [Revision of Avengers: Age of Ultron] 3- Shattering Relations [Revision of Captain America: Civil War] [BOOK 4+5 titles TBD] The Alternating Lines of Avery Rogers 1- Alive but not Awake [Revision of Captain America: The Winter Soldier] 2- Everlasting Bond [Revision of Captain America: Civil War] [BOOK 3+4 titles TBD]

*SEQUEL TO "OH, MY SOLDIER"* Maggie is in way over her head when she suddenly wakes up in the 21st century. Steve has been awake for a year, and does his best to answer her questions. But her past floods back to haunt her, and she must find a way to deal with it. Things only get worse when the new team encounters a long standing enemy force... Hydra and The Winter Soldier. What will she do for the people she loves, and for herself? "No, I cant go on... I can't even start... I've got nothing left, just a broken heart..." I DO NOT OWN THE MARVEL CHARACTERS OR STORIES. I ONLY OWN CHARACTERS I CREATED. I ALSO DO NOT OWN ALL THE SONGS IN THIS STORY EITHER. CREDIT GOES TO THE SONG WRITERS AND FILM MAKERS. I ONLY OWN MY CHARACTERS AND STORY ARCS.

❝Warrior child, you carry such coldness in your veins. War-torn child, you carry such loneliness in your bones. War-born child, you carry such horror in your heart. Warrior child, you were born with legends breathing inside your name and history books waiting to trace your footsteps.❞ ─ j.p. via tumblr pencap COPYRIGHT 2015 JASPERHAIE. COVER BY NÎCIMOS, BAYPORTS. RANKED #73 IN FAN-FICTION. RANKED #1 IN THE WINTER TAG. MARVEL CINEMATIC UNIVERSE. CAPTAIN AMERICA | THE WINTER SOLDIER. BUCKY BARNES | THE WINTER SOLDIER. BOOK ONE. Started June 12th, 2014. Ended July 2nd, 2014. Ended editing December 26th, 2015. Re-editing started April 16th, 2016. Re-editing ended July 27th, 2016. Featured in the reading list 'The Bad Guy's Not Always the Bad Guy' on the official Wattpad Superhero account, May 15th, 2018.

❝Whatever happens, I will never stop loving you.❞ . . .in which they are broken and battered, but their love for one another is what keeps them from completely falling apart. [BOOK TWO] [Highest ranking: #9 in fanfiction as of 5/26/18]

Sold to a facility at six years old to be raised as an assassin, Sweden-born Ruth Rogers was trained by whatever means necessary to become a lethal weapon. As she grew older, Ruth struggled with the reality that her memory had never been wiped like others around her but completed missions to obey the woman who commanded her. Ruth perfected her craft and quickly became known as the sly assassin Buzzkill. After suffering heavy losses, the facility was discovered and raided by SHIELD authorities. Before they could catch her, Ruth escaped SHIELD's reach and tried to live on her own for the first time in the eighteen years she's been alive. Feeling guilt for what she has done, Ruth agrees to aggressive experimentation to clear her record which ultimately results in devastating effects on her body and mind. Ruth struggles to survive as she continues to clear her conscience, becoming allies with the Winter Soldier in the process. Can Buzzkill and the Winter Soldier become strong enough to escape the place that controls them? Can they both learn to live with the consequences of their pasts while fighting their present demons? ************************************************************************************* Some characters, places, and agencies within the story belong to Marvel. Warnings: Mild Language, Violence, Mental Disabilities/Disorders (i.e. Depression, Anxiety Attacks, PTSD)