"It's hell on Earth and the city's on fire Inhale, in hell there's heaven There's a bull and a matador dueling in the sky Inhale, in hell there's heaven" - Frank Ocean

sequel to 'off the record' "say whatever you want-but you know i'm still your best." "that doesn't mean you're still my choice." ••• leilani didn't leave USC-she just needed space to heal. space from everything...and everyone that came with it. now she's back, three months later, with a fresh start and someone new-someone who makes it easier not to think about everything she lost. and for a while, that was enough. no more almosts. no more what-ifs. no more juju. until she's standing in front of her again...and realizing some things never really ended. now the lines are starting to blur- between who she's with... and who she still wants.

She grew up in a house built on chaos-screaming behind locked doors, bloodstained towels, broken bottles. Her mother self-harmed in front of her. Her father drifted in and out, never staying long enough to protect her from anything. So, she made herself small. Gentle. Apologetic. She promised herself one thing: never become like them. Be kind. Be quiet. Be safe. Now at UConn, she keeps her head down. She volunteers at the library, wears soft cardigans, and flinches when voices get too loud. She rarely talks, never argues, and says sorry even when she's hurting. Most people think she's just shy. But Aubrey Griffin notices more-the tight way her jaw locks when someone mentions family, the way her hands tremble when she's overwhelmed, the mask of calm that slips when no one's watching. Their friendship is slow, warm, and full of soft moments. Aubrey becomes her safe place, the one who sees her without judgment. But as the bond grows, so does the fear-what if she loses this too? The girl keeps secrets: her mom's in and out of rehab, her dad still calls when he needs money, and sometimes she disappears just to scream where no one can hear. Aubrey knows something's off, but never pushes. Until jealousy creeps in. A teammate flirts with Aubrey, just enough to make the girl feel like she's in the way. Instead of speaking up, she shuts down-answering texts less, avoiding eye contact, pulling away because she doesn't know how to hold on to good things. It's the first time the girl cries in someone's arms and feels safe. Slowly, she lets herself be loved. Aubrey becomes not just her first love, but the first person to ever make her feel like she's allowed to take up space. And one day, when she finally introduces Aubrey to her little sister-the one she used to hide in closets while chaos raged around them-Aubrey brings flowers and holds her hand like a promise: you're not alone anymore.

a paige bueckers story.

I want to feel your flesh between my teeth, All my devotion turned violent. JuJu Watkins / Fem!Oc © Gaiactia

In which, Hialeah "Lee" Gray has an ethical dilemma and JuJu Watkins shows her what it's like to really be taken care of. Lee steps into her new role as a sports psychologist in USC's Athletics department. She's the new kid on the block which means she needs to keep things clean and professional. JuJu's name pops up on Lee's calendar: they'll be meeting twice a week while JuJu continues injury recovery and begins the new season healthy. However, along the way lines are blurred and wires are crossed. ™️ THETAUREANEXPERIENCE

Reese Whittaker and JuJu Watkins swear they're just best friends, but if that's true, then best friends cuddle a lot, stare at each other too much, and get way too jealous over random people. Everyone knows they're in love-except for them, because denial is a hell of a drug. [juju watkins x fem oc]

amani, daughter of basketball royalty, has always played the game from the sidelines-studying sports medicine, streaming highlights, and living in her own loud, funny, unfiltered lane. but when a viral clip of UConn star paige bueckers steals her attention, amani finds herself tangled in a new world-one that's equal parts chemistry, competition, and the thrill of discovering a player who makes her see the game, and herself, in a whole new light. (fem oc x paige bueckers)

What happens when the heir to a political dynasty falls for a woman who plays by her own rules? Jordan Ellis has built her life around control. Sonia Citron plays like she has nothing to lose. Between family legacies, public scrutiny, and the quiet moments that make it all worth it, they'll have to face the truth: in love and in politics, every choice has consequences. [sonia citron x fem oc]

"They're so pretty, it hurts I'm not talking 'bout boys I'm talking 'bout girls" social media & real life paige bueckers x female oc