Some dark poems and thoughts from when I was at my lowest.. Some personal stuff that I'm to afraid to talk to with my friends.. My journey of getting light back to my life My online dairy

"So deal, okay?" "What about?" "If you kill yourself, I'll kill myself too." "Alright. But if you kill yourself, then I'll kill myself." "Okay." Audrey Simmons is suicidal. Cayden Nowell is too. But when they were about to kill themselves, they met each other on the same rooftop. And so, they made a pact. A suicide pact. This is a story about a boy and a girl who tries too hard to fit into their group of friends, but constantly failed. And when they found each other, they finally find a place they can fit into. The only mistake they made was that they broke themselves trying to fix each other. "I will put up with living here, on earth. But only if you're by my side." ----- WARNING : book deals with depression, suicidal tendencies and many more. Also contains a lot of cursing, so if you're sensitive to these kind of stuff, try to stay away. This book is meant to spread suicidal and depression awareness, not encourage it. So if you're depressed or suicidal, it's okay to read this book as the characters tries to overcome their depression and suicidal tendencies. This book also contains lots of humour for you to enjoy, so it's not all grey :)

"Wait! You can see me?" He asks with wide eyes. I roll my eyes at his stupidity, is he high or something? "Of course I can see you, you idiot!" I say with annoyance lacing my tone. He looks at me with bewilderment at me as if I just grew another head. "How can you see me?" He says, with the same bewildered look in his eyes. I huff in irritation. "God, what type of shit have you been drinking, dude? Yes, I can see you, what's the big deal in that?" I say as I place my hands on my hips. "This can't be possible. You shouldn't be able to see me." He says as he shakes his head. "Why?" I say, completing this drunken game he's playing. "Because I am dead."

Tiana Collin's life is horrible and she knows this. With an abusive father and a druggie for a mother and with absolutely no friends at school, she didn't think her life meant much. So she decided to end it. But before she ended her life, she wants to feel loved. To feel cared for. To feel. So she decides to date one of the most popular boys in school, Tyson Bent, who she knows has a bet with his best friend. A bet to get her to sleep with him. She knows he doesn't really care about her. But sometimes it's nice to pretend. After all, she's only supposed to be with him for a week. After that... well after that she's not even going to be alive. Tyson had it all, the popularity, the looks, the money, everything. And he never missed a chance to flaunt his supposed perfection. Another thing about him is that he never backs down from a dare. So when his best friend dares him to sleep with a girl named Tiana, how can he refuse? But when he reads her diary, he has another mission. A mission completely different from the dare. A mission far more important than a dare. An added bonus being the chance to finally find out who he is and not who everyone else wishes for him to be. A chance to grow into the person he could be. TW// suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, abuse, mention of drug addiction

"I saw you sitting here, you the most beautiful little thing I've ever seen, depressed and alone. I looked into your eyes and I saw that you were going through some messed up shit and it broke me. I want to get to know you. I want to put light back in your blue eyes" -- Anastasia Peterson has certainly been through it all. She's experienced the loss of her mother and the insanity of her father. She's anorexic, depressed and suicidal. Anastasia is planning to die, and she most certainly wants to follow through on he plan. But Anastasia catches Parker Fields' eye. He's a tall, handsome jock. Parker plans to save her from the most dangerous thing in her life- herself. And he certainly wants to follow through on that plan.

Nicole was sat in the bathroom with a tub of pills and a knife to kill herself. Why, you ask? Here's why. Nicole was bullied by everyone and anyone. She couldn't cope anymore. Death was the only thing that she wanted. She was sick of it all. She wanted someone to save her. New guy, Adam comes and certainly catches all the girls attention. But what catches his attention is the girl who sits by herself at lunch. The girl who is tripped over in the corridor. The girl who's arms are covered in scars created by herself. The girl who he finds unbelievably attractive. Nicole. Will she push Adam away or will she let him help her? Will she jump of a building or fall for Adam? - Contains nature of self harm and scenes related to suicide - 14+ - Chapters could be quite graphic for some readers * ENDING IS SAD SO BE PREPARED *THIS BOOK DOES NOT PROMOTE SUICIDE Note: anyone who feels that they're going to kill themselves, please don't. Literally message me and I'll reply as soon as. If you're affected by this book negatively, I can only apologise and please send a message my way. [COMPLETED]

Blaze Knight lost her mum in a car accident. Blaze witnessed the death of her mum and it haunts her nearly every day and night. She struggle with depression and self harms. She pushed all her friends away because she doesn't want to lose anyone else she cared about, she just thought it was easier to push everyone away. Blaze lives with her Grandma. Her dad disappeared when she was around 5 years old. Now nearly 18 she hasn't seen him since. She doesn't believe in love or hope or anything like that. But now enter. Levi Rivers. The schools own bad boy. No one has proof of what his done only rumours. Everyone is scared of him because of his looks and his image. He is over 6ft3 which makes him tower over people. His dark hair and dark piercing eyes. His bulging muscles. He has had a horrible past abusive father, run away mother. Nothing seems to go right for him any more until he runs into crying Blaze in the middle of the night. He then notices her eyes, the emptiness and the sadness they hold. That's when he decides to give her Hope on life and life is worth something. *This books deals with issues such as Depression and Self Harm. #695 in Romance.

Poetry that comes out of my life and mind.