Travis didn't want to go to hell he "deserved" what was happening to him. His dad regularly abused him, and his mom was too afraid to step in. After putting the puzzle together, Travis realized he might be gay. He did everything he could to make sure he didn't fall for the stupid blue-haired boy. |ZOMBIE AU|

Travis has a secret that he has to keep from his father in order to stay safe: he's in love with a boy. The boy he loves is insecure about himself, and hides the fact that he loves Travis back. The two boys have to date in secret. But everything changes when Travis's father finds out. Warning: Story contains abuse, swearing, slurs, homophobia, depression, suicidal thoughts and actions, and self harm.

"I know we don't really know each other and you probably have your opinions of me. I thought maybe if I told you how I feel, things could be different. The truth is, I can't stop thinking about you. I'm crazy about you. I think you're amazing! But I know these feelings are wrong. It's not the way a boy should feel. Shame swallows me whole. My father would kill me but I can't live in his shadow forever I just...."