31,198 words: A routine exorcism trip goes horribly wrong when the cram students get into a car accident and become stranded in the middle of nowhere.

(First Rendition) 41,653 words: Rin is neither human nor demon, he fits in nowhere. His so called "friends" make that known often, and his own brother has turned his back on him. With no one to talk to, Rin turns to self destructive behaviors in order to get through everyday life. However, will a routine mission make it all crumble apart?

80,030 words: Rin experienced some horrible things when he was younger, and keeps the secret for over nine years. Yukio knows something is wrong, but no matter what he does, he can't get his brother to tell him. When the twins and the cram school are sent on a mission that requires them to stay at the monestary, will everything come out?

1,950 words: It's a normal, boring day after school, and Rin is a bit antsy. Will Yukio's bag of snacks prove to be a worthy distraction?

-THIS IS FROM 2015-2016- Everyone in the Academy knows that Rin is the son of satan. With his inherited blue flames, pointy ears and black tail. All his friends have stopped talking to him, nicely atleast. Even his own brother has done the same, even though he knew.. he always knew (Tokyo ghoul reference) He still has people who love him like Shura, Kuro, Ukobach, Izumo, and the guys at the monistary. But can they heal the wounds that his friends and only family have cut into him? He is at his breaking point. Hidden behind a mask... a mask that is cracking. - Quick note about the cover, the username on there is my old one but I did fix the cover it just won't upload and I know how to fix it but I just don't feel like fixing it because I'm a lazy ass. This won't turn out like you expect it to! Rin doesn't commit suicide.. Too many books on that for my liking

What happens after Rin Okumura loses all control during his battle with Amianon? What if his friends continue to shun him instead of trying to comfort him or be his friends again? Read to find out how Rin deals with all of this. I do not own Blue Exorsist. Any pictures I show here do not belong to me (unless I otherwise state so) All characters belong to the original creator

Rin is suffering more and more everyday. He is losing everyone he loves because of his so-called 'father'. He is losing his mind piece by piece. Death after death. How much more can he handle till he goes completly insane?

Everyone always saw him as this happy-go-lucky, shameless, ignorant little boy. Sure, he wasn't smart, but he wasn't ignorant. He knew and understood what he was, what was going on. He knew he was the son of Satan. He knew he killed the only man he knew as 'father'. He knew he had to pretend that he was happy, for his brother's sake. He knew he had to pretend he was strong, to protect everyone he cared about. He knew he'd have to play this strong, kind, loyal, joking character. This character that was only a part of him. But he wasn't happy. He wasn't strong. He was Rin. Rin Okumura.

Rin has been having a hard time since his demonic secret got out. His friends won't acknowledge his existence and his brother has been giving him the cold shoulder. How much more can Rin take? This story does have self harm and suicidal actions. Amazing cover art by LittleFireOfLife.

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️: Suicide, self-harm, anxiety, etc. What if, in the anime Blue Exorcist, Rin Okumura were to give into depression? What if he were to have had it since he was little? How would things change? Find out in this fanfiction! I don't own anything from the Blue Exorcist series. Update: I no longer use Wattpad, but AO3! I am currently rewriting this on there. Visit the last chapter for links :)