Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

Ashton, Calum, Michael & I are survivors of the terrifying zombie apocalypse. I'm the "baby" of the group, meaning that they don't let me out. But what happens when there is no other option but for me to leave and fend for myself? What if babying me all these years was a mistake? What if I prove them wrong? Playlist: 1. 21 Guns by Green Day 2. Iridescent by Linkin Park 3. Blow Me Away by Breaking Benjamin 4. Radioactive / Demons by Imagine Dragons 5. Look After You by The Fray 6. Break by Three Days Grace 7. Strong by One Direction 8. No song. 9. Only One by Yellowcard 10. The Bird and the Worm by The Used 11. Monster by Paramore 12. I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz 13. Silver and Cold by AFI 14. Sing for Me by Yellowcard 15. Bloodstream by Stateless

"dont worry, ash. everything is alright. they just dont understand." (lowercase intended)

Ashton and Luke have always been more than friends, but it takes a little bump in the road for them to realize their feelings for each other. (Trigger warning)

Luke Hemmings is sick. He is really sick. He was born with a heart mistake. When he turns 17 he needs a new heart. Without it he has only 3 more months to live. And he tries to make the last 3 months of his life the best time ever.

When Luke Hemmings starts at Gallows View College in England he faces a lot of trouble, but there's one person that seems to take the pain away, his teacher. Falling for the gorgeous English Literature teacher things get even more complicated for Luke, but does he make the move, or watch from the sidelines?