phil only paints things that are beautiful; if only dan knew that.

i was sinking, and i couldn't swim. {phan au} highest ranking - #10 in danandphil

*'BEST PHANFICTION' WINNER (FANFICTION AWARDS 2018)* Daniel has anxiety and crumples paper to calm himself down. Phil has ADHD and diminishes hearts to bring himself up.

When life's got you down, you're supposed to get back up. What if you stay down? *trigger fuccking warning* for ALL my fics, just don't read em, but this one especially, okay?

Phil loses his memory in a tragic accident. All he can remember is his age and his name. A boy, who's named Dan, saved Phil and builds a friendship with him. But when the truth comes out with Phil be able to stay or will they be torn apart...forever. (Triggering topics)

Dan Howell. A teenage boy with depression, self harm, and a very rare disease of butterfingers. Also has an obsession with llamas. Phil Lester. A teenage boy with eyes that could make the moon jealous, has an amazing talent for making people smile when they have gone through the roughest crap ever. Also has an obsession with house plants. Both of them? They love to make Youtube videos. Dan is all over the place. Phil is all in order. He helps any one that needs it. What happens when Dan meets Phil? Does a new relationship blossom? Can Phil fix Dan? But what if Phil has secrets of his own? Is this shell of his fake? READ TO FIND OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[completed] philly: who's this? danhowell: your future husband ; copyright © 2016 //highest ranking: #4

[All triggers and warnings will be stated at the beginning of each chapter] Dan regrets everything and Phil misses him. But the thing most needed in a relationship was lost. Trust. *** Phil doesn't know what to do with his life and Dan's is encouraged by his parents. Their lives were miserable and they were each others happiness. They don't want to live without eachother, but is anyone going to do anything about this skinny love? [COMPLETED 24th February] ©likeplzphanyounot 2016

Phil: a loser, continuously beaten and picked on by the other guys at school. Dan: popular, arrogant, and confused. What happens when the two collide? Just like me is a story of trust, love and secrets (Ok I'm making this sound like a bad tv drama, just read the fic please, I broke my thumbs writing it. *WARNING* self harm, suicidal thoughts, explicit language, slight anorexia. It's an angst fic so y'know, the average...also smut, so look forward that kids hey hey ;)