No. No. No. He's everywhere and I'm not even aware that it's him that haunts me from my past and my nightmares at night. I remember what happened I just don't remember his face or voice. How could I let myself forget? "Sweet, Sweet Rome, you can't ever hide from me. Nothing will ever take you away. You're mine forever. Stop crying before I give you something to cry about kitten." He says looking down at my tear stained face. Gripping my throat I try not to make a sound. I search the floor for something to focus on. Everything is so blurry. I'm in so much pain I can barely think straight. I don't make a sound, I don't fight or struggle. I let him do what he wants. I don't feel anything, I make myself feel nothing. I'm not even in my body anymore, somewhere far off thinking of my family. There smiles. There warmth. I need them to know how much I love them. Soon everything goes black and I'm just so tired. I don't even remember passing out. Finally, I'm at peace. Finally no more pain.