Don't tell me that I'm beautiful until you've seen the marks, etched in my skin and the ones on the inside, on my heart, that I hide. Don't tell me that I'm strong until you've seen me break down, fall apart, time and time again, and cry until the tears no longer come. But only at night, because no one could see me then. Don't tell me that that I'm lovely until you've seen what nights are like and the terror that sometimes posses me, seen me sob and tremble and question myself "why me?" until I run out of air and collapse. Whishing to lay there so nobody would notice, but only to be found. Don't tell me that I'll get through this that this is only temporary or it's only a stage until you've seen the inner torment inside of my mind and the demons that refuse to be silent. Anxiety, self-conscious, emotional problems, depression and worst of all guilt. It's regret, I think that really is the worst kind of torture, sure guilt is bad, and sadness is bad, but regret is the sickly combination of both. But if you've seen that other part of the scars, pain, insecurities and the bitterness that I hide. The voices that whisper during the day and scream throughout the night. The darkness lurking behind my smile, and you're still by my side and think me as truly beautiful. Then maybe, Just maybe, I'm able to believe you. - By Amanda Katherine Rickets and added some stuff myself Is it possible to have no regrets in life? If so does this include me? ---- Credits to my friend; @alish36 (mostly with the gore parts) ;) I don't own the characters. Hinted Ikarishipping and Black and White shipping. Involves humour, depression, eating problems and much more. Involves curse words. Second story. Started: 20/12/2017 #1: Ikarishipping 16-05-2018 #1: Reallifeproblems 23-05-2018

❝All love is soundless - real love does not need words❞ Serena Yvonne - a smart, intelligent girl, but was born deaf and mute. Her father left her when she was only three, so she was raised by her mother Grace. She doesn't have many friends due to her disabilities, and is constantly lonely. One day she discover's a writer's haven called Wattpad. Serena immediately becomes immersed in this new world of words, and decides to write a story of her own. When she gets a message from a follower, she immediately replies - and the two become friends. Little does she know that she is slowly falling in love with the boy on the other side of the screen. This story does not include Pokemon. Cover by me!!!! Note: I don't own Pokemon or any characters! I only own the storyline *IMPORTANT: most likely all works are to be discontinued for the foreseeable future

Ash is enjoying his time in Alola - a new region means a new adventure. But for some reason he can't help but feel as if something is missing... Serena meanwhile has returned back to home to Kalos after competing in Pokemon Contests in Hoenn. She is yearning for another adventure, just like the one she had a year ago... with her childhood crush Ash. Little do they both know that they will cross paths sooner than expected - which will take them on a journey of a lifetime. This is my first Pokemon fanfic, and my first Wattpad story! Contains amourshipping!!!!! I don't own anything except for the storyline. Cover by me *IMPORTANT: most likely all works are to be discontinued for the foreseeable future

espoir 2.0 - satosere She was Sere, he was Ash. She never crossed the line, he knew no bounds. She never left home, he took his home everywhere he went. She was honest, he loved lying. She was quiet, he was a loudmouth. She was sadness, and he was her cure. She was in love but he was not. ESPOIR 2.0 WILL BE BACK IN JUNE!

❝Hearts break, it's what they're made for. People love anyway, it's what they're made for.❞ • satosere • In which Serena reunites with an old, old friend who had completely forgotten about her existence but fate intervenes. .... This book is from Jan 2016 so please excuse any errors and plot holes ✿ Highest rank #389 in Fanfiction. [previously known as 'the breakup expert']