***AVAILABLE AS A PAPERBACK ON AMAZON*** Warning: More than half the chapters are taken down due to a copyright agreement with the published Amazon version. Alexa Parker is your typical high school golden girl. But when her best friend commits suicide, she loses everything, including herself. Left with nothing but an ominous letter addressed to her, Alexa finds herself spiraling down a dark tunnel. One she won't be able to get out of alone. Then there's charming and sweet Blake. He wants to show Alexa how to live again and show her that she's stronger than she thinks. But overcoming her personal demons may prove harder for Alexa than she thought. With the help of Blake and his sisters, Alexa finds herself and learns to love in the process. - achievements: #1 in suicide prevention cover by @ashleethegoodgirl

"You wrote my name wrong" "You said it's Rider" "It's Ryder with a Y" "Ok I'll make sure I write it right next time!Enjoy your coffee" Next time: I swear to God your nerdy glasses are gonna be lenses" "What?! I wrote it right this time" "Rider With A Y' is NOT right." - Ryder is a bad boy, or at least that's what he wants everyone to think. He tries to act like a bully, edgy, and cruel, and it works for the most part. Spencer doesn't like to be called a nerd but deep down he knows he is to a certain extent. He is bored of everything and he sees the good in people, but will he find any good in Ryder?

There was no denying that Ashton Spears was handsome. His obsidian dark hair, strong jaw and deep stormy eyes seemed to make every girl melt on the spot. Well, every girl and Alexander Winters. Alex was the schools social outcast; the anonymous, closeted reject that everyone either ignored or tormented. Fate had deemed Alex and Ashton to a life of separation - their distinct lack of similarities held them from ever interacting. In fact, Alex was sure that Ashton didn't even know he existed. I mean, why would he? Ashton was popular - always had girls hanging off his arms like jewelry. Alex was... well, nothing special. But everything is turned in its head when Ashton is forced to attend Alex's tutoring lessons. Will they learn to get beyond their differences? Will this be the opportunity Alex needs to get to know this mysterious boy more?