They always ask me what I feel for Jia. And I never answer right away. Not because I don't know but because there are some truths too heavy to say in one breath. My love for Jia is not loud. It doesn't break doors open or demand to be seen. It doesn't fight for attention, and it doesn't try to rewrite her story. It simply... stays. Even when she forgets. Even when she chooses someone else. Even when I become nothing more than a shadow standing at the edge of her life. I love her in the way the sky loves the sea- always above her, always watching her waves crash into things she can't control. "Do you still love her?" they ask me sometimes. And I almost laugh. Because the question assumes it ever stopped. I do. Not in a way that demands she comes back to me. Not in a way that turns into anger or possession. But in a way that quietly bleeds. I remember her in pieces her voice saying my name like it meant something safe, her eyes looking at me like I was part of her world before everything shattered. And now? Now she's rebuilding herself. With me by her side. I see it. I accept it. I don't fight it. Because if Jia ever had to choose between being saved and being loved the way I love her... I would choose her survival every single time. Even if it means I lose her. That is what makes my love dangerous. Not because I would destroy for her but because I would disappear for her without hesitation. There are nights I wonder what I am to her now. A memory? A mistake? A lesson she survived? But even then, I don't hate her for it. Because loving Jia was never about possession. It was about witnessing her exist softly, painfully, beautifullyeven when she was never fully mine. And maybe that is the cruelest part. I never stopped loving her...but I also never asked her to stay. So I remain here, in silence, in distance, in restraint loving her in the only way I know how: Not by holding her. But by letting her go... every single day, all over again.

Im trapped in this marriage.... Yes! Asawa lang ako sa papel. Sa legal na paraan, pero hindi sa sarili naming mga buhay. 6 years had been passed, pero nabuhay pa rin ako parang isang dalaga. Pero hindi pwedeng mag mahal ng taong gusto ko. Kung may maganda mang naidulot ang sitwasyon na ito? Yun ay ang nagkaroon kami ng masaganang buhay at walang takot na masasaktan na naman kami ng lasenggero kong ama. While him? Enjoying his lustful life na para bang walang nangyari sa naka lipas na anim na taon. Being in a bunch of women who can satisfy him to bed. I was stuck in a reality being a Hidden Wife... Edukadang babae pero walang kakayahang maka wala sa kulungang papel nayun. "Hindi ko hiningi ang perang yun!! Pinag trabahuhan ko ang lahat ng yun. Bakit?! Hindi mo ba maalala kung paano mo ako binaboy ng gabing yun?! Kung paano po iniwan ng mga pasa at latay ang katawan ko?! Maaaring nabili mo ko ng pera mo!!, Pero hinding hindi mababago nun ang kasamaang ginawa mo. " "Isang beses mo lang akong naging puta Ethan!! Diring-diri ka sakin?!! Well don't you worry, my husband. I feel the same way too. I'm still having a nightmare of our lustful night! How you tied and pinned me to bed. How you fucked me so hard dahil akala mo ako ang Sabrina-ng nanakit sayo!!! Ang tanging ginawa ko lang ay ibenta sayu ang sarili ko, pero pinipilit kong kalimutan ang lahat ng yun at itama!!" "Pero tuwing gabi, pilit na sumaksak lahat sa utak ko ang lahat. Kung gaano kasakit ang iniwan mong sugat sa katawan na to!!! Kung paano naging peklat ang lahat ng yun dito sa puso ko!! " "May ginawa ka ba para burahin ang lahat ng yun Ethan??!! Wala? Sa halip dinagdagan mo lang at lalo ko lang sinusumpa ang gabing yun!!!" "Asawa mo ko Ethan!!! Asawa mo ko sa lecheng papel na yun!!! Kaya kahit anong gawin ng kabit mo,... Mananatili siyang kabit hangga't gusto ko. At wala ka nang magagawa run, "

"Tulad ng buwan, Ikaw ay pupunta sa mga parirala ng liwanag ng dilim at ng lahat ng nasa pagitan At kahit na hindi ka palaging lumilitaw na may parehong mga ningning ay palagi kang buo." Keegan said while staring at the shining Moon that night. His voice were so deep yet so warm. I can't help but to stare at his face. This man right beside me... I didn't knew he'll be here saying those words. Our eyes met. I can't remove my gaze at him. How could I adore this guy when all he say is He wanted to kill me but ending up saving me in any way he can. He always shows how aggressive he were. How superior he was in every aspects. I look at him intently. Her perfect jaw line. His thick eye brows. His firm lips. His red hair. His tan skin. I like everything about him. "Tunay ngang higit kang nag niningning sa tuwing kasama mo si Khionne.. marahil ay, napukaw mo ang atensyon ko dahil galing ka sa kakaibang mundo. Iyon lamang ang tanging dahilan kung bakit ako laging naka masid saiyo." Why I feel so broken with those words? Helena Theia Lopez! Fix yourself! Hindi siya ang lalaking type mo! Pag balik mo sa tunay mong mundo, mas marami ka pang makikilalang lalaki higit pa sa mga Prinsipe dito! Especially Khionne! Hindi lang siya sayo mabait! Kung di sa lahat! So don't be stupid! Sigaw ng utak ko. "Akala ko dati..para kang araw na mahirap hawakan.." sabi ko. "Hindi pala, isa ka din palang buwan na nag sisilbing ilaw sa mga madilim kong gabi habang nandito ako sa mundong ito. Kahit hindi kita nakikita, alam kong nandiyan ka lang..nag hihintay sa pag babalik ko.." "Tama ka." Malamig na sabi nito. "Naghintay ako Theia, ngunit..hindi ko inaasahang sa pag babalik mo ay may nais kang pag masdan." He smile at me but I know. There's something in it. "Ihanda mo ang iyong sarili.. sa susunod na pag kakataon... Kikitlin ko na ang buhay mo." malamig na sabi nito saka tumayo at humakbang papaalis. How could my life get messy like this?! Just from that book?

"I was standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more I can take, just because I choose to love you." Lyka said while letting her tears to fall down. Hoping it will less the pain she's been keeping. If only she could turn back time. She will do everything not to fall in his brother bestfriend named Ace Jeldrin Samaniego. But it's too late. She fall in love with the person who's she knows that won't take everything seriously. She love Ace Jeldrin even though she knows that she's just a little sister to him. "If one day... You'll find the guy who you wanted to be with...if he makes you smile... He takes care of you..your his priority.. more than the way I did? Just tell me. ...I won't get in the way. I'll support you. I'll be the best man on your wedding." -ACE JELDRIN SAMANIEGO Then one day there's a guy suddenly came to her. He has no emotions, empathy, doesn't know how to care with someone.. A guy who doesn't know the feeling of pain..the feeling how to be inloved.. then out of the blue he tells her.. "It's always been the boring basic story line scenarios. Two persons falling inlove with each other... definitely, it won't happen to us. How can we be? You're in love with someone else . I'm the type of guy who doesn't believe in a fairytale love stories. So.. would you trust me?.. Akong bahala sa love story mo...let me court you? deal?" -Aiden Felip Danksforth All Rights Reserved 2016