He wanted to die. What was there left to live for? He had failed them. His friends, his comrades, his father, his sensei and worst of all his students. Heck, he let the entire world down! In the end he was ready to follow in his fathers footsteps and just end all of it. But what if Kami decided to play with him? What if she gave him the chance to atone for all of his failures? So now Kakashi has to learn how to live again without losing the last bit of his sanity. Will he get help from the unlikeliest places or will he break under his crushing need of atonement?

A crossover from the famous manwhas <Your throne> and <The way to protect the female lead's brother> fanfic, that turns enemies into lovers from their first meeting at the battle between two powerful families.