I was never meant to be a stay at home kind of wife. I was never meant to simply get a job, pay bills and die. I was 19, looking for a purpose. I was just another kid who had finished school but soon found out the whole sea of opportunities they tell you about during all those years isn't that deep. I let everybody down when I decided I wasn't going to college. My so called friends turned their backs on me and soon I was a walking mess. I would party and drink all night and then just sleep during the day until the moon was up again. It went on and on until a soldier boy broke my heart. I always knew i wasn't meant for the heels anyway