Life. People wonder what our purpose is here. Most ask, why are we here? Others ask, what are we meant to be? What are we meant to do? Most just don't care. Most only care about the money and riches, or power and fame. But not me. I know a lot of people say this but, I really just don't. I don't care for the world. To be honest I'd rather not be alive, than live. This world is cruel. Its filled with hatred. I live in a family of twelve. Nine sisters and three brothers. Four girls dead. And one brother in collage. I pay for the bills. Day in, day out. Its how o keep myself going. Taking in the pain, letting out wasted love. That's my personal quote. I put it on my wall as motivation. Having to skip school sometimes for more hours at the bar. Still not making enough money to pay for bills. I don't know why. But I do it. Maybe for my own sake, so I can have a home. But I convince myselfni love my family. But the pain still gets to you. Even if you run. Even if you hide. It will always find you. I run from the ones who ask. From the ones who stare. From the ones who hate and judge. I can't help it. Living in the shadows is all I know. I do everything. I love them, but i dont know how much more I can take. But I can't hide from him. I can't hide from his shadows. And he always finds me. He is my pain. And my happy.

Juniper Jenkins, a senior in high school, with an outgoing, fun and loving best friend, Sydney Jane Roy, couldn't imagine her last year of high school without Sydney. Well that is until she actually doesn't spend her last year of high school with Sydney after she commits suicide. Juniper instead spends her last year trying to figure out why she did it. On a journey of finding answers, June, encounters hate for not being there for her best friend. But June also starts to smile from the three boys she desperately tried to avoid.

"One of the most courageous decisions you'll ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your heart and soul." Aurora was young when her mother left to prison, leaving her children, Hailey and Zane. Aurora was sixteen and like most teenagers, except for she has two jobs and shes left with raising and taking care of her little sister, Hailey. Zane, her older brother, is always gone, and doing drugs and getting drunk, not knowing what is going on until one night, when the siblings find out there mother is never coming home. There life is now a constant roller coaster. Aurora finds out the secrets of her brother, and where he gets all the money. . . She also faces the life of love and the popular boy of the school. Why does he notice her now?