Aku, Frega Maldivian. Aku 18 tahun. Aku hidup dalam kendali orang lain. Selalu ada cahaya setelah gelap. Begitu yang sering dikatakan mendiang Mama dulu. Kalimat sakti yang selalu bisa menguatkanku. Sekarang, meskipun lebih sering kubuktikan itu, melihat bagaimana matahari dengan cahayanya yang kekuningan mengusir gelap yang dibawa malam tadi, aku tidak merasakan seons pun kekuatan berdetak dalam dada. Hampa. Kini aku tahu, kalimat itu tak berlaku lagi dalam hidupku. ⚠ rated 17+ Mengandung unsur berantem-beranteman, sexual abuse, dan ujaran-ujaran depresi *hard angst, buat yang suka tokoh

"Kamu bisa mengambil dua, tiga jam. Tapi, jangan meminta untuk waktuku di hari esok. Aku tidak akan pernah tahu yang terjadi. Mungkin aku tidak akan mencapai waktu yang kamu inginkan." - Adam --- Dia benci London, tapi keadaan memaksanya tinggal di London. --- Dia mencintainya, tapi selalu mendapati sakit menjadi bagian laten dalam rasa cintanya. Dia tidak pernah menjadi orang pertama yang dipilih. --- Saat seseorang datang ke dalam kehidupanmu, memberi warna-warna bahagia, lantas mengakui betapa dia mencintaimu, jika kamu telah menyimpan hatimu untuk seseorang yang tidak pasti mencintaimu, apa yang akan kamu lakukan? The power of first love, apakah itu dimiliki Riana dan Adam? Siapa yang akan lebih erat menggenggam cinta pertama? love. pain. struggle. jealosy ----- Diterbitkan Guepedia

"Apa karena gue dan Dana punya ayah yang sama, kita jadi gak bisa saling peduli?" Putra bertutur getir. Suaranya masih bergetar. Alam membuka mulutnya. Namun, yang keluar hanya desahan. Ia ingin menyangkal pertanyaan Putra. Sayang, kata-kata yang ia butuhkan mendadak tercerai-berai dalam kepalanya. "Karena kita saudara, apakah kita harus saling benci?" Alam menggeleng tanpa bisa bersuara. "Gue capek nanggung rasa sakit, Lam." "Kasih sakitnya ke gue. Jangan lu rasain sendiri. Buat gue berguna sebagai sahabat lu." Putra memejamkan matanya. Emosi mengalir lagi dari kedua sudut matanya. "Gue gak minta hidup kayak gini, Lam. Gue gak minta jadi antagonis buat keluarga Dana."

***Please note that this book has been taken down because it's been published and only the sample chapters of the published version are available on Wattpad. You can find the links to both ebook and paperback in my bio. ***This is the sequel to Bullied and Pained, and it can't be read as a stand-alone. *This blurb contains spoilers, so it is advised not to read it unless you read Bullied and Pained first. --------------------- Nine days have passed since Hayden got into an accident and fell into a coma. Nine days of hoping for a miracle that would allow him to wake up. Nine long, endless days. Half of me is conquered by despair, while the other half clings to the hope that he will recover soon. I refuse to let fear and doubt overcome me. Hayden is dark and complicated, but as the days pass, I'm more determined to fight for him despite the hurdles in our way. I have to believe that there won't be serious consequences once he wakes up. I have to believe that we will overcome all obstacles and become stronger together. After all, we may be both damaged, but we're each other's salvation.

***Please note that this book has been taken down because it's been published, and you can see only the sample chapters of the published version. **This is Bullied's sequel, and it can't be read as a stand-alone. *This blurb contains spoilers, so it is advised not to read it unless you read Bullied first. -------------------------- Two months have passed since the day I pushed Hayden away. Two months since I found out he loved me and wanted to be with me. I've been trying to move on and forget about him, but my heart refuses to listen. Hayden had almost died saving me. Half of me wants to forgive him for everything and give him another chance. The other half prevents me from doing so, distrusting him and ignoring my heart's desires. Hayden is dark and complicated, and as the days pass, he gets further away from me, ignoring me whenever our paths cross. I have less than a year before I go to college, and I won't see him ever again. I have to believe I will get over him and move on with my life. I have to believe in my future without him. Unless he didn't really move on, and our masks are about to fall.

***Please note that this book has been taken down because it's been published, and you can see only the sample chapters of the published version. You can find the links to both ebook and paperback in my profile bio. ------------- I have always been bullied and trapped in darkness. I hoped life would get better when I moved to my mother's hometown, but it only got worse because it was there that I met my unrequited crush, Hayden Black. He despised me from day one, and even more when I became best friends with his twin, Kayden. Kayden gave light to my life, but my happiness with him lasted only until one night two years ago. That night Kayden died because of me. Half of me died with him. The other half was left to bleed, suffering Hayden's and his friends' constant bullying. Now I must endure one more year before I can finally escape them and go to college. This year has to be different. Either I will become stronger, or they will finally break me into nothing. ----------- Highest rank in Romance: #1 on 10/28/2017 Bullied won the Best Romance and the Best Diverse Book award and the Bullied series won the Best Trilogy/Series award in The Fiction Awards 2018. --------- I wrote this novel for #NaNoWriMo2016 #NaNoWinner2016

[Wattys 2018 Winner: The Change Makers!] Adalah sebuah dosa jika Jane O'Reilly meminta Thomas yang hadir dalam reuni kecil mereka, untuk menemaninya ketika hatinya baru saja diretakkan oleh mantan kekasihnya. Jane tak pernah bermaksud memanfaatkan Thomas untuk kepentingan pribadinya, namun ironisnya, begitulah yang terjadi. Dan Thomas juga tidak cukup bodoh untuk memahami kenyataan semacam itu; bahwa dia mungkin hanya dijadikan sebuah permainan oleh Jane. Tapi jika Thomas tahu bahwa Jane memang sejahat itu padanya, mengapa Thomas malah menerima permintaannya? Mereka sama-sama tahu. Kita semua tahu. Tapi kita semua hanyalah manusia. Dan manusia hanya bisa berprasangka. • • Some parts include 16+ content so please do have a care ;) • #1 thomassangster #1 thomasbrodiesangster 14/10/2018 #3 songfiction 21/10/2018 • Cover photo is taken from: https://couple.orgiastic.press/couple/love-15-signs-that-he-is-the-right-person/ • [ Bloomed © Zhraya, 2016/2018 ]