This leaves off after Kotoko gets back from visiting Irie-Kun in KOBE. Even after leaving, Kotoko feels like there's a hole in her heart. After Kotoko gets back from visiting Naoki she starts feeling sick. After weeks of unbearable pain, she goes to the doctor. The results terrified her. She can't tell anyone. She can't cope. She can't escape. She needs him. 'She started choking on her tears. Her tears rolled down her cheeks in didn't stop as she attempted to talk.' "Irie-Kun... I-I'm sorry! I couldn't do it! I didn't want to be a burden on you..." she's trying to catch her breath from crying so much. "All I ever was to you w-was b-be a burden! I'm sorry. I know I should have told you...My head said yes... But my heart kept telling me no... I guess a am just an idiot." At this point she had collapsed against the door. She couldn't take it anymore. She didn't know what hurt more, the fact that she hurt others, or she hurt herself and never told anyone.

I hope this helps you feel better and more confident. I hope you get better and live a happy life. "There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to travel far enough to find it." ~ Yuki_ Narae. I would also like everyone to note that none of these quotes or poems are written by me. I give all credit to rightful owners. I purple you all 💜