Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

Ashton can't take care of his own brother, so his parents hire a babysitter. © goldenstarkey | 2014

Luke is the lead singer of the band 500 Years of Winter and Ashton's biggest fan. Ashton is a Youtuber and Luke's biggest fan. Side Stories: Michael is a gay weirdo who starts dating Ashton's best friend. Calum is bisexual and thinks no one wants him. NO MALUM!!

"he only comes outside when it rains."

5 Seconds of Summer & One Direction -crossover- Multiple Ships. warnings: triggering. anorexia, self-harm, depression, bullying, swearing. Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in this story. ~ "Want an oreo?" Who knew one sentence could change someone's life so much?

"You stole my gum." "You should have just given me a piece." [This boyxboy and simply fictional] Fanfiction #20 / Teen Fiction #77 -2nd Place in the Popular Lashton awards-