"I know we don't really know each other and you probably have your opinions of me. I thought maybe if I told you how I feel, things could be different. The truth is, I can't stop thinking about you. I'm crazy about you. I think you're amazing! But I know these feelings are wrong. It's not the way a boy should feel. Shame swallows me whole. My father would kill me but I can't live in his shadow forever I just...."

This is a Ciel x Alois fanfic. I do not own Black Butler. I also do not own the art used to create the cover, all goes to their rightful owners. Oh, also, please don't report me for the cover. Just because Alois' ass is showing doesn't mean its bad. If you can't handle the maturity then just don't bother with the book. Thanks. WARNING Book Contains: Sex (Lots Of It) Self Harm Swearing Abusive Relationship Homosexuals Mpreg Alcohol and Drugs Sebastian x OC Claude x OC Ciel x Alois (Of Course) And more Sex

Cover says: Amnesia "Fear is all I can remember." #### Before leaving the hospital, Alois is diagnosed with temporary amnesia. He doesn't remember anything except for his name, and before he and Ciel met. Ciel is ecstatic to see his boyfriend awake and somewhat normal again, but something is off about Alois... BOOK TWO OF ALIVE AGAIN Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.