She left me when I was nine, dropping me at my father's doorstep like I was a box she didn't need to carry anymore. For fifteen years, she never came back. She never called, never texted. But I saw her on Facebook, posting pictures with her new family, smiling with the daughters she decided to love. I was her first child. The one she left behind. Now, I'm 24, trying to break free from a father who only knows how to scold and a mother who only knows how to forget. This is my story. A story of learning to live when the people who should have loved you never did.

WATTY 2016 WINNER of the HQ Love Award! With national focus on Islamic terrorism, few noticed when "Domestic Terrorist" Clayton Waagner was added to the FBI's Ten Most Wanted List on September 21, 2001. How did a software developer become the 467th person added to the FBI's Ten Most Wanted List? Why did the FBI make Waagner a priority ten days after the worst terrorist attack in American history? How did he become the only person ever listed on the nation's top three Most Wanted List: FBI, U.S. Marshals, and ATF? Clay Waagner led an interesting life. He pranked a Soviet ship and caused a Cold War incident inside the Arctic Circle. He is a licensed pilot, an artist, a husband of 40 years and the father of nine. He worked for the Christian Broadcasting Network and skippered a commercial fishing boat out of Kodiak, Alaska. He has escaped from custody five times. Criminal Science major's and convicts know his name, but few in the public do. This is his story. "Autobiography is only to be trusted when it reveals something disgraceful. A man who gives a good account of himself is probably lying." George Orwell By Orwell's standard this is an honest memoir. Clay Waagner 2016