for all of us out there that are incapable of telling them how we really feel alex·​i·​thy·​mia (noun) inability to identify and express or describe one's feelings "Individuals with high levels of alexithymia are usually aware of their emotional arousal; however, they have difficulty differentiating emotions and verbalizing them." - John S. Ogrodniczuk et al., The American Journal of Psychotherapy

"I want to go back to my old ways." Ezra said in a monotone. It felt like he held no emotion. I stood dumbfounded not knowing what to do? "I tried you know, it's been eleven fucking months we're dating and I still can't expct anything from you to pleasure me." Is this what our relationship was all about? I thought to myself. Still didn't have the guts to say anything. "The hell how can I want you Leila? You're own mother didn't even want you." As soon as those words came out of his mouth, I felt like something died inside of me that day. 'My own mother didn't even wanted me.' I heard some people gasp not believing that was actually happening. I held my head high and with as much grace as I could muster I walked out of the gym that was so beautifully decorated for the homecoming. ___________________________________ Erza Abe Alder heartthrob of Lake Pearl High school. Leila Grace Rena not the kind of girl you come across everyday. Read further and find out what happens when Ezra dumps Leila at senior prom? They're soon off to collage as they have a whole new set of adventure ,trouble, ups and downs mixing a little bit of jealous ex-boyfriend drama, a whole lot of making out and love triangle and then finally came love.