It always hurts when you fall down. But...

+This story can serve as a stand alone, but it is a sequel to my story "Sacrifice" and will contain spoilers.+ Ethan isn't capable of love. His walls are impenetrable and he plans to keep it that way. He's haunted by the loss of his birth father and he can't afford to lose anyone else he cares about. Ethan has enough people to protect and he's not looking for anyone else. Then he meets Arian. ~ Arian isn't looking for love. He's been burnt too many times before and lost too much already. After a relationship goes south and he has to move to the next town over he can't afford to be betrayed by anyone else who claims to care about him. Arian has a bright future he can't afford to lose if his shameful secret is exposed again. Then he meets Ethan. ~ These two are inexplicably drawn to each other and while they may not be what each other want, they may find that they are exactly what each other need. **Content Warning** This story focuses on a homosexual relationship. Contains graphic scenes of sex and violence. Contains subject matter of bullying, self-harm, and mental disorders. Rated Mature for a reason, don't read if you're sensitive to above mentioned. Cover made with a picture of model Michael Wilcox. I do not own this image. "You will never know love unless you surrender to it." ~Fools Rush In

His beautiful eyes shining in the sunlight. His crooked smile with his perfectly imperfect teeth flashing. His soft cheeks speckled lightly with freckles under my thumb as I caress his face. His steady heartbeat thumping loudly in my ear when I lay my head upon his chest. These thoughts are what consumed my mind as I hunted my latest prey. Mature Rating for: Graphic violence Morbid subject matter Graphic sexual content Strong language Blood and gore Trigger Warning: Seriously don't read this if you're sensitive to disturbing acts of violence, obsession, and psychotic behavior. There will also be gay sex involving three males. Consider yourself warned.

this book consists of his songs, the ones i play most. i share them with you, because they are beyond the word BEAUTIFUL. the clips and the pictures in this book are not mine. i got them by googling. please, enjoy.

and i always fall for the poems about the RAIN

my song is love unknown and i'm on fire for you clearly dearly you don't have to be on your own I don't wanna see you alone and i'm not gonna take it back I'll never gonna say i don't mean that you're the target i'm aiming at ... -the message, coldplay-

Elias is willing to give up anything for River. His safety and popularity are small prices to pay for the boy he's loved ever since they were children. River has never had anything good in his life, aside from Elias love and devotion he has nothing else to lose. They tell themselves they're all each other need but the world around them seems determined to prove them wrong. × × × Story contains: topics of self harm, child abuse, death, illness (mental and physical), and homophobia. Graphic depictions of violence, homosexual sex, and strong (sometimes homophobic) profanity. Be advised. × × × "True love is selfless. It is prepared to sacrifice." ~Sadhu Vaswani × × × If you finish this story and liked it check out the sequel "Surrender". https://www.wattpad.com/story/51370011-surrender

when a silent reader (me) starts saying words... expect the cringe-y effects.