You see -- Josh was the first guy I ever dated. I was the first guy he ever dated. We dated for a while but we were not ready for it. Josh and his world had a lot of rules because he was an actor whose fame was getting higher and higher. And in the beginning, I didn’t mind. Being his secret boyfriend and living this fantasy I had dreamed for lot of years made me feel complete. Then things started to get complicated. And then I met Liam.

When my brother auditioned for the X Factor 2 years ago, I never imagined how much it would change my life. I met four boys who turned my life upside down. I gained two new brothers in the form of Niall and Zayn, and Harry turned out to be the best friend I could ever for. …Then there's Louis. For two years, I've loved him. He's all I wanted. At least… I thought he was, until I had him. And then suddenly, he wasn’t enough anymore.