Harry Styles loves Louis Tomlinson and not as a best friend. He is in a band with 4 of his best friends, Louis, Liam, Zayn, and Niall. Harry is dying inside as he watches Louis kiss, hug and love Eleanor the way Harry wants Louis to love him. One day Harry cannot take the pain anymore after Louis does something he said he'd never do...Will Harry tell Louis he loves him? Or will he let the love consume and torture him?

~ This story may contain mentions of self harm, depression, angst and sexual acts ~ One Direction, the worlds most famous boy band at the moment. Behind closed doors nothing is what it used to be. One Direction is falling apart because of that one boy, Harry Styles. Something happened to him while they had their one week vacation at home. He's not the same Harry everyone used to know anymore. Harry acts normal in front of the media but that's not what's really going on. The media falls for Harrys good acting skills while the old real Harry is struggling to get through life. He has given up on everyone and shuts everyone out, he says he's fine but deep down inside he knows that he needs a lifesaver. Someone that won't give up on him no matter what, but it seems like everyone has already given up on him. He just needs a lifesaver, someone to help him get through all of this. But he's too scared to be hurt, again. Louis however wants to find out what caused Harry to be like this. He wants his Hazza back. But can he do that while keeping his own secret safe? ==========================

Larry Stylinson fanfic. TRIGGERING. Eating Disorders, Depression and Self Harm present.

"why don't you smile anymore?" "there's no reason to smile." [trigger warning]