Phil Lester is the kind, funny, and popular kid. everyone loves him, and he has what seems like the perfect life. The social butterfly that wants to be friends with everyone. Even Dan Howell. Who is quite the opposite, however. He's known as the quiet emo boy who sits in the back of the classroom listening to Fall Out Boy when he thinks the teacher isn't looking. Little does anyone know that Dan is slowly cracking on the inside, and that he is just one little hit away from breaking completely. Warning: mentions of suicide, depression , self harm, and abuse. (Also- there is swearing..)

A country where you get killed for liking the same gender. {{There are actual countries like this}} Dan Howell has lived half of his life in fear, closed in and not aloud to share his thoughts. Daniel Howell was gay. He knew he was probably the only person like this in the school. Talking to people was a trouble to Dan. He was scared to accidentally expose himself for one of the most illegal things in the country. This town specifically, was known for having the harshest people. Sometimes it felt like Dan was the only person to exist with these feelings. He wished he could run away but he's too scared to. His self esteem isn't awful, but it's getting worse. He's alone. That's until he meets Phil Lester. That's when everything changed. Even his future plans. WARNINGS: -anxiety -boyxboy -No smut but things close to that -self doubt -depression -aNgSt -Curse words