"The less you care, the happier you are." He turned to face me, his blue eyes dull with traces of betrayal. "No. The less you care, the lonelier you are." - In a world where people have the ability to flip an emotions switch, many people lack feelings and sympathy in general- including Dan Howell after a tragedy strikes and he can't take it. However, he meets Phil Lester, the outgoing flirt with too big of a heart to handle. The two become close, and Dan soon realizes that even with his switch off, he can't deny that Phil is slowly reaching to turn it back on, and Dan can't seem to push his hand away.

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)

When so much damage has been done, is it possible to recover and get better?

**TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM, ABUSE, etc*** COMPLETED 10/12/16 Dan walks into class one day with a black eye, a burst lip and bruises and cuts up his arm. What is he hiding from Phil?

an au where if your soulmate gets hurt, you get hurt. "mind if i sit here?" "not really" "hi, i'm phil lester" "dan howell" 1st book !note that in this fanfic they're the same age! !TW for mentions of self harm!

Dan and Phil seem to have a pretty good life. They are a couple of the most famous youtubers, the work on their own radio show, and they're best friends. Phil couldn't be any happier. But what happens when Phil finds out about the other side of Dan he hasn't met yet? WARNING: MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

Slicing open your skin every night over something so small is completely and utterly stupid. But for Dan Howell, there isn't any other way to show that he's hurting inside, Sure, there's AmazingPhil whose presence enthrals him yet you can't cure hurt just from a couple of videos that last only a few minutes. But what if these two boys could see that they are almost the same, just on different ends of the scale. One is a YouTuber. One is a fan. Together maybe, just maybe, they can cure themselves. Instead of being broken, maybe they could both be fixed. WARNINGS! Cutting Violence Such Phan. I WROTE THIS A VERY LONG TIME AGO! ITS CRAP AND AWFUL AND OVERUSED AND BE WARNED OF THIS!!!!!!! HONESTLY ITS BAD I CRINGE WHEN I READ IT BUT WHATEVER READ IT AND JUST CRINGE FOREVER

I wrote this book because I personally have struggles with this and a lot of this is basically all the things that happened to me. Stacey in this is actually supposed to be me and everything she experienced (well, mostly) happened to me. All the pictures are actual photos of the people and the place I stayed and the photo cover is the house I stayed in. I am writing this because I want to tell you to stay strong and you CAN get over what you are going through. This story has a lot of trigger warnings

she would never be good enough for them. *lower case intentional cover by the lovely @fourgiving TW: eating disorders, bullying, self harm please read responsibly and take care of yourself <3

Dan, depressed and anorexic, gave up on speaking years ago. He was lost in alcohol and loneliness until a black haired boy showed up and broke the silence. [trigger warning; depression, anxiety and anorexia/bulimia] - this story is from a german girl, who's not fluently speaking english