Coming out was something Michael Mell thought he'd never have to worry about. It was a concept he thought he would never have to face. Was he scared? Of course. He was more scared than he was at Jake's party but he knew it was time. If he kept this from anyone for much longer he'd fall apart from the inside out. He also knew that if things went south, Rich would be right there by his side to comfort him. He definitely knew that it would be fine with his moms. I mean, they probably want a gay kid. But the rest of his school and all of his friends? That was something he definitely wasn't ready to face. THIS IS THE SECOND PART TO A FANFIC I ALREADY WROTE SO READ PART ONE FIRST BEFORE READING THIS ONE IF YOU HAVEN'T. IT'S CALLED 'Dude I Think He Likes Me'. THIS WILL NOT MAKE ANY SENSE IF YOU DON'T READ THAT ONE.

Conner Murphy, the edgy, stereotypical druggie teenager Evan Hasen, the anxious, shy, unnoticeable teenager Who would've thought these two would make the perfect pair (Trigger warning: Suicide, self harm, abuse, angst)

"woah hansen, breathe." evan struggled for air, attempting to focus only on what the boy knelt in front of him was saying. he let out a strangled sob and his eyes clouded with tears, he could no longer see connor but he could feel the boys grip wrapped around his forearms. he channelled all his thoughts to that contact between him and connor, and began to find a steady breathing pattern to follow. deep breath in, 1-2-3-4, and out, 1-2-3-4. 'don't pass out, evan, don't pass out', he told himself. in, 1-2-3-4, out, 1-2-3-4. and before long, he was back, connor searching his eyes for some kind of sign that the attack was over, his face etched with concern. "that's it, just breathe." - lowercase intended. read the first chapter for triggers and other notes💗

if only comfort was something i was able to give you warnings: My heart hurts Mentions of suicide Implied suicide

So in this fan fic, Michael, Jeremy and literally everyone else is in college. This will have angst, smut, and fluff. And the pictures I put in it, are going to have relation to the chapter. I'm not just putting random ass pics in it. Thanks, and enjoy~

"If we survive this, I'll give you a life worth living, even if I can't give myself that." Evan Hansen? Anxiety disorder. Never really thinks about how often he has panic attacks but it's just about daily. Connor Murphy? Severe depression and anger issues. Self harms too. Throws things without thinking, aims for people who never did anything. Some call him a murder in the waiting. They're watching eachother kill them self one baby step at a time from their self destructive tendencies, just waiting for it to stop; for them to get help, but that day might never arrive *heavy self harm, abuse, strong language and overall unhealthy relationship indication and description, if you're easily upset this is really not for you.*

"You know what? This is all your fault" "What? I can't believe you're blaming this at me Michael, I did this for you!" ((This is gonna be pre, during, and post squip so get ready for a slow burn m'dude))((also really slow updates))

Summer vacation. It was the thing Rich was definitely not looking forward to yet he didn't want to be at school either. Ever since he got out of the hospital everything in his life has been different. He wasn't comfortable talking because of his lisp. Rich had become the quiet kid. He kind of stopped talking to people. He was hated by almost everyone because of the fire. No one understood that it wasn't something he really wanted to do but he felt like he had no choice, except for one person. Michael Mell. (NO SMUT YOU FIENDS.)

I really wanted to write this oneshot book shdhwhdjd--