the air smells like the promise of tomorrow and nothing has ever smelled more terrifying

A nickname that goes bitter in your mouth. Cries for help that no one listens to. Gentle hands that make you quake on the ground you're standing on. When Phil first met Nico, he thought he was a gift from the heavens. But behind the mask lies something daunting, something unnerving, that Phil never foresaw. Through his journey, he finds solace in Dan, the regular at his workplace, who seems to be the only one who sees through Nico's mask to the darkness underneath.

Enrolling into one of the best universities in the country, Phil Lester is ecstatic. But all of his excitement fades away when he meets his new roommate, Dan Howell, who has his mind set upon getting Phil transferred rooms. Dan is cold to him from the beginning, but Phil believes he could be hiding something from him. Whatever the secret may be, he promises to stick by Dan no matter what. But when time at university becomes more difficult, they both take whatever consequences mean necessary and soon, end up as runaways. [Neko Phanfiction]

**mentions of depression, anxiety, self harm, suicide, and swearing**

*text fic* **mentions of depression, anxiety, suicide, and swearing** Also the majority of this is text, so I'm not going to worry about spelling or grammar errors

you're the color of everything that's ever meant anything

{Sequel to Before You Leave} ❝After I left, there was so many things that hit me and that I realized. One of those things was that I missed you.❞

❝Remember that first time we hugged at the train station? I remember seeing your face light up and I hugged you for so long, I didn't want to let go because for once, I felt complete. But that was before you left.❞

"hey, asl?" [highest rank: #26]

TRIGGER WARNING. THIS STORY CONTAINS MENTIONS OF RAPE, SELF INJURY, DEATH AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. Can Dan save Phil? Phil is suicidal and Dan is the only one who's there for him. Can he alone save Phil?