#1 enough #1 notenough #3 in lifelessons #15 relatable "They say you regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did do in life," I whisper, glad that I can still form a coherent sentence with him so abnormally close to me. I would barely have to extend my arm halfway to touch him. I become painstakingly aware of every movement, watching his dark eyelashes flutter with every blink. He moves impossibly closer, eyes still concentrated on my lips. I swallow anxiously, forgetting how to breathe. "Well thank fuck for that," he mutters, before a hand against the back of my neck pulls us together. --- Never put effort into anything, I told myself. It will never help you. It will never beat those around you. You will never be competition for those geniuses. You will never be wanted by anyone in your life because there's always someone better than you. You will never amount to anything. You will never be good enough. I will never be good enough. And then I met Slater. Began: 2nd September 2016 Completed: 9th April 2018 (+585 days)

Kay Nakagawa's life revolves around two things: street basketball, and coconut water. Having the captain of her school's basketball team interested in her seems like the best thing in the world, except she doesn't really like Julian Mayhew in that way. As the year progresses, Kay finds herself in increasingly terrible circumstances. The comparisons with her successful brothers is nothing new, but having Julian's possessive ex-girlfriend constantly on her heels is making her life more exhausting than she signed up for. And at this point, she just wants out. Amidst all the nonsense she has to deal with in school, a coconut filled with juice always manages to brighten her day. And unknowingly, she starts getting attracted to the ash-haired worker at the coconut water shop. Who proves to be able to make her day even brighter.