Dazai Osamu x reader | You've lost your time, your ivory bones, your decaying blood and your flesh-filthy organs and now you're going to endlessly drown. You are falling to the raven black ocean full of blood, to the abyss full of white as the snow lily bandages-to the numb nothingness. Falling, you see his alabaster hands full of scars and dirty blood of the death; they choke you, yet they take you from that vile emptiness and darkness. You sin for him, paint your arms with blood and he takes you to a better place, he takes your away from those animalistic men, that played with you as if you were a ravished toy. started: 20.07.2020 ended: -? [@nvkolai] !warning! includes suicide, suicide themes, attempts and thoughts as well as drugs, alcohol and abuse and small mentions of sexual assault/rape!

ONGOING (ON HIATUS) ♡ All you wanted was normal, but in a world with abilities, normal is far too unrealistic. ♡ You were unable to tell dream from reality growing up in the slums just outside of Yokohama city, always fighting for your life, numb to the constant suffering all for the right to live another day. During your time there you had known a group of children your age and got by with them in your darkest times; amongst those in the group, a brother and sister you empathized with more than the rest. However, after an incident, while the other children died they both disappeared and you were alone again. You thought you deserved it. Years later, you've found simple work at a tea shop in a small corner in Yokohama, taking impossible shifts to cover your inability to sleep due to your ability which you harbour so much hate for...until you see a face that pulls you back to your past and you make a mistake. You start to believe in the lies and debt of the Port Mafia boss for a simple relief of the part of you you resent the most. Of course, that's not all the keeps you there. Akutagawa. He is familiar, so you can't help but be curious. You both are. Moreover, after a twist of fate, you also become unexpectedly consumed in another's light. Atsushi. He feels safe, and you can't deny the need for it. Stuck in your mind, when both begin to mean different things to you it's chaos inside turned to insomnia; but who will be the one to grant you true peace of mind in the end? ♡ Disclaimer: I don't own bungo stray dogs or any of the characters except for you, and the plot. - this may start off a bit slow. ♡ Trigger Warnings: the usual in anything bsd. - I will be using female pronouns. - I update whenever I can. - SORRY FOR ANY OOC-NESS - Your ability in this story is lightly inspired by Edgar Allan Poe's poem "A Dream". ♡ Thank you to Mar (@marster_) for making me this cover.

COMPLETED ▵ What if you woke up one day and didn't know who you were? What if after one accident, all your memories were blocked, and the one rule to your recovery is to not force yourself to remember, but figure things out as the days go on? What if you couldn't even remember who you loved? You may have the detective agency caring for you, but there's something missing, and you can't quite place why...or how you lost it. How far are you willing to go to find it again? ▵ Disclaimer: I don't own bungo stray dogs or any of the characters except for you, and the plot. YOUR ABILITY IS BASED OFF OF THE REAL AKUTAGAWA'S STORY 'In a Grove' !! ▵ I will be using female pronouns, I will be updating whenever I can. ▵ Thank you to Mar for making this cover for me, she's the sweetest go show her some love !! (@marster_)

Akutagawa Ryunosuke x Female!Reader | Bungou Stray Dogs ❝ You were a shadow in his world of perpetual darkness ❞ [COMPLETED + UNEDITED • 2016]

COMPLETED • There is no better way to describe you than a doll, living to please your owner. At the age of 11, Mori took you in from an orphanage and brought you to the Port Mafia; that's when you met Dazai and discovered your ability. At the age of 12, you become Dazai's right hand...except you aren't allowed any contact with the outside world. At 13, you hear a voice that you are told is nothing but a dream, at 14 you've become nothing but a puppet in the hands of a puppet master. At age 15 he's gone, and you are left with nothing. In the present, now 19, executive Chuuya Nakahara is given responsibility of you, but when he takes you on a mission and you don't react the way he needs you to, he starts to realize something is terribly wrong with you...he just doesn't know what. Only meeting you once in the past, what will happen when he starts piecing it all together? How will he react when he starts to care more about you than he should? What strings will he have to play to free you from your past? How deep do your wounds run? • - Trigger warnings: the usual you'd find in BSD, implications of sexual harrassment. - I will be using female pronouns. - nsfw warning in part 2 (chapter 41). • Disclaimer: I don't own the characters except for "you". The credit to the Bungou Stray Dogs world goes to the respective owners. The plot is all originally mine, however. • Thank you to Mar for making me this lovely cover. Love always. (@marster_)

❝ Is it not true that no two human beings understand anything whatsoever about each other? ❞ ー 「Dazai Osamu x Fem!Reader」 「Completed」

｢ Dazai Osamu x Reader ｣ ❝You think you're finally free from the darkness that binds you, but no one can escape their past so easily. Especially one as twisted as yours.❞ [on hold] @-dostoevsky 「 BOOK 2 」

｢ Dazai Osamu x Reader ｣ ❝Why am I still living? Am I allowed to be alive? Why is someone who is a threat to humanity, such as I, is still standing on the same earth as everyone? Tell me!❞ [completed • 2018] @-dostoevsky 「 BOOK 1 」