He lied. Of course he did. Why would he tell them? Why would Stiles Stilinski let the world know how he truly felt? Stiles. Skinny, defenceless, Stiles, was the Nogistune. Although he is no longer possessed, nothing can stop the pit of guilt lingering his stomach. He can't turn back time. His brain knows it wasn't him, his brain knows that it was the Nogistune. His brain knows he was possessed and he couldn't stop it. But his heart? His heart is shattered. Shattered by guilt, depression, fear and regret. Disclaimers - Set after season 3 of Teen Wolf - Scott isn't an alpha. Derek is - Issac never leaves Beacon Hills Warnings - Trigger Warnings - Smut included (probably) - If you don't know what smut is then don't read - Strong language

The instinct not to breathe underwater is so strong that it overcomes the agony of running out of air. No matter how desperate you are, you won't inhale until you're on the verge of losing consciounsness. Sirius knew that. He stood there, staring down to the black, cold water and pondering, would it be easier just to jump. He was on the edge, not just of the quay but of his own mind and sanity. The fall wouldn't kill him. The waves would. ... This is a Remus x Sirius Hogwarts years fanfiction I started writing a while back, in wich Sirius struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts. Remus tries his best to be there for his best friend, but his state of mind isn't the healthiest either. Contains triggering stuff, please don't read if you know you can't put up with stuff like ABUSE, SUICIDE, strong language or VIOLENCE. Also, all of this is based on the characters of the Harry Potter series. The cover picture is from tumblr and I added the name of this fic on it, so I do not own it. All of this is written by me, partly based on some of the events from my own life and suicidal thoughts I've had a long time ago, so please don't copy the storyline as it's partly very personal. Hope you'll like it

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