It has been three months since Ash's death. Three months since Eiji moved to Japan. Three months since Eiji lost his best friend. Eiji has been trying to get over Ash's death. Trying to move on, but with no luck. Everything reminds him of Ash and brings up old memories . His therapist recomends writing what he would say to Ash down, in attempt to move on... Here is his letter. *Trigger Warning* This story contains dak themes. *Disclaimer* I own nothing except for the plot. The characters belong to Akimi Yoshida and the art belongs to various creators.

An alternative ending where Eiji saves Ash at the last minute before bleeding out. Since he's powerless in a wheelchair he has help, of course.

Everything is now over and everything will be back to normal. That should go for all who suffered the long time of war and pain, wins and losses, gains and loses. But Eiji is an exception. It's now time to return to his homeland, Japan. He feels a void in his heart as he boards the plane and he knows very well what can fill that void. It's that person he shared all his pains with. The only person he can't bear to lose, the only person he desires to see before he leaves. But he can't turn back now. He's made up his mind and he knows what he's doing is for the best. "Eiji." A voice rings in his ears. He knows that voice. He knows who called him and he listens to it. "I'm sorry Ibe-san but I'm going down." He doesn't want to leave and regret this for the rest of his life. He needs to see Ash right now. He needs to be with him. So he makes a decision and takes the risk. But, did he make the right choice? Or did he make a choice that will make him want to reset time and wish he never went off the plane?

This story is placed in a world where Ash does not die and Eiji and doesn't leave to go back to Japan. Ash and Eiji have been dating for a while and are now experimenting to find what level of sexual intimacy Ash is comfortable with. (Warning! mentions of rape)⚠️ Will include *Smut *Comedy *Fluff Will NOT include *Death (don't worry)