After Josh and Amanda have their final argument, he reached to his music to make him get out of his depression. After the album Astoria was written, Josh is convinced that he'll never find love again. the future is unwritten and what happenes when Josh is willing to open up to an average girl? Will be possibly find love and new found trust in her?

What will happen when Mabel, a 17 year old girl dizzied by heroin and suicidal ideation, meets Josh, a 17 year old boy who simply wanted a fresh start? A god damn mess is what happens. God complexes, withdrawals, relapses, sexual discovery, and awkward laughter ensue as you follow their fuckups. **completed. started editing it but lets be honest I'll never finish** *****There are some triggers in the story including: Depression, Drugs, Self harm, and suicidal thoughts/actions. The drug use doesn't have continual trigger warnings as the story revolves around drugs. The rest I've tried to point our ahead of time. There may be more so feel free to ask questions before reading***** *mad thanks to @stillgotlegs for making my cover* Side note: the first few chapters are pretty bad but it kinda gets better #1 in josh ramsay #2 in marianas trench