the second adoxography. (Midnight wonders pt.2) I write to take the hurt off my heart, even if it's for a split second When the pen hits the paper, I have something to share the pain with I write to feel alive So that I can say what I want without limits My soul can finally speak the words my tongue won't say I write to make sure something I do is remembered That something I did mattered Because I also have the human urge to feel accepted and accomplished To feel loved and wanted But finally I write for the same reason anyone does anything To take their mind off of reality. this is a continuation of my first poetry book , midnight wonders , you don't have to read the first one to get this one , read whichever you please TRIGGER WARNING : mature topics are talked about stay safe lovies ♡ and remember, you're never alone and these poems will make sure you know that.

•Exulansis: the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it •Sciamachy: a battle against imaginary enemies, against your own shadow. •Eccedentesiast: a person who fakes a smile For some people, this is how we cope with life. In three words, how we live is described. But I'm here to make sure our story is described with more words. More feeling. I'm here to make sure you know that you're not alone and your life can be described in more than three words. Words that make you feel like the sun is kissing you in the middle of winter, which is Apricity. Words that make the storm your living in feel like a light drizzle of rain, which is Sirimiri. Words that go into your ear sounding like wind against trees, which is Psithurism. I'm an addressing Numinous (describing experiences that make you fearful yet awed.) So here is my gift to you, my adoxography (beautiful writing of a subject little talked about). Here are my poems. Highest rankings- •#48 in poetry 12•16•17 •#36 in poetry 12•..•17 •#32 in poetry 1•10•18 •#26 in poetry 1•13•18 •#14 in deep poems 6•21•18 •#2 in deep poems 1•3•19 •#9 in deep poems 2•4•19 •#10 in deep poems 3•28•19 •#4 in deep poems 4•27•19 •#1 in deep poems 4•30•19 •#8 sad poems 8•19•20 •#1 sad poems 2•1•21 Trigger warning , deep topics talked about stay safe loves

This is a book of my collection of Suicide poems that I have written. If you have some you would like me to publish just send them to me and I will give you full credit.

Poems I wrote myself. All of them are original. (Can be triggering.)

Just some posts and quotes people with social anxiety will be able to relate to. Also for people who don't have social anxiety so you can know what it truly is, or at least what people with this disorder go through. Cover by: fracture

Skylar is far from normal. She's a borderline and anorexic with a few other problems mixed in. She's been in a mental hospital for the last year and they finally released her. They say its because she got better but really they gave up trying. She doesn't want to get better and for the entire year she was there she didn't make an attempt to fix her problems. Now she's back in the real world and she's developed a new problem. She can't talk. Physically she can but mentally she's putting up every wall she can around her to avoid getting hurt by people. She tries to make her heart cold and numb from lack of emotion. But while she's doing all of this her mind becomes a strange and dangerous place. She can't get better without help. She's not strong enough. Will she find someone to help her out of this mess. (I'm bad at descriptions. Sorry)