Stupid, ugly, fat, retarded, useless, unwanted.. thats what I hear every day at school, people also say attention Whore and so much more. Sometimes I cry, I cry and cry and it doesent stop, i never choose this life, not this life of being called all those mean names. No one likes me, NO ONE and thats all just because of the popular boys at school, Nash Grier, Matt Espinosa, Cameron Dallas, Hayes Grier, Shawn Mendes, Carter Reynolds, Jacob Whitesides, Aaron Carpenter, and Grant Landis. THEY are the ones who are mean, and alot of other people but those are just the main ones. NASH GRIER- Hes then one who usually hurts me, and when I say that i dont mean words I mean physically and its not just once and a while, its almost EVERY single day of my life, and not just only in school, some how he always finds out where I am, and also in the summer. Once I came home with a black eye, but my mom never found out, I hid it with make-up just barley, he also gives me bruises and he scratches me onc

"Spencer, I'm willing to give everything up for you. What ever you need, I'll give it to you. I promise... I won't hurt you..." Shawn trailed off as warm tears ran down his soft face. "Shawn... You won't be the one hurting me... It'll be the other way around, and I can't risk that." I cried. "Don't go... You're my everything... I love you..." He whispered. Every word he spoke tore me apart... I knew it was for the best. No one is safe when it comes to me. Everything gets messed up when I'm in the picture. Although Shawn is completely fucked up, he was too innocent for me to mess up. '''

"Welcome to The Loft. Ecstasy, lust, pleasure, desire, every and anything you want, you can have it all. All you have to do is accept the key."

Every year I change I get fangs, and percing that I never had. And I want to drink blood and I can't get a BF they all end up Dead.