[Second Book to "The Hot Douche" Trilogy.] **UNDER HUGE REVISIONS** The world around me is now faded and unknown. Whether I look at what's going on around me or look at myself in the mirror, I no longer recognize any of it. There are 7.7 billion people in this world and yet I feel completely alone and abandoned. Once the meaningful things left my life I tried to figure out what the point of life was. I know that everyone has a purpose in their life, a meaning that is beyond this world. I thought and thought... I just couldn't find a point, a meaning, to my life. Will I ever make it back to the life I once knew? **DISCLAIMER** This story does contain matter that involves depression/suicidal thoughts, real life issues, physical assault, sexual assault (to a degree), bullying (to a degree), and violence/violent actions. Those matters can be highly graphic, triggering, and offensive in many ways. The following are used for plot matter and character development only. In no way are they used to emotionally hurt or encourage anyone in any way possible. I highly advise that if any of the following will trigger you that you steer away from this story.

[First Book to the "The Hot Douche" Trilogy.] **UNDER HUGE REVISIONS** "He couldn't resist, as he put his firm hand on my upper thigh, while still controlling the steering wheel with his free hand. He lightly squeezed it as he made my legs shiver from his cold touch. I felt his speed increase as we got closer to my house. He didn't bother to pull into the driveway, instead he quickly parked on the side of the road. He opened his car door fast and I didn't even take a second to wait for him to open my door. Once I got out of the car I ran up to my front door, trying not to trip, so I could unlock it. Once I unlocked it I grabbed Bowen by the collar of his shirt as I pulled him into my house. I quickly landed my lips on top of his as I used my hands to close the front door." Just like that, I forgot about my boyfriend for a second. Am I really going to lose my innocence over some hot guy?