"I'm not sure what that means." "What what means? Cam, you can't hurt yourself. It's crazy!" He was yelling. It made me scared, oh yeah, but I wasn't about to tell him that I knew what he was saying. I didn't want to admit to him that I was falling apart, that I had been for years. A Michael Clifford fanfic (*depression and self harming to appear, reader discretion is advised if triggering*)

Alan, a once outgoing, happy sixteen year old from Boston, is sent to live with his grandparents in California, following his parents death. Following their death, and old friends turning away from him, he decides to shut himself off from the world. He becomes quite, reserved, depressed and has refused to let anyone in since the night that changed his life forever. But what happens when Austin, a sixteen year old boy who is angry with life and one of the school's biggest bullies is dared to make Alan fall in love with him with the intentions of destorying him?