Recently #3 in Holby City fan fiction! #15 in Ramin Karimloo tagged stories in January 2021! Note: This is a non-canon fan fiction that has Kian leaving Holby after his accident and developing a relationship with an original character. His drug addiction relapse, and the hospital shooting that leads to Jac leaving, don't happen. To give the story a nice closed ending, I added two bonus chapters. The second one features Jac. Surgeon Kian Madani is silently struggling with a series of events that happened just over a year ago while working in the Darwin Ward; the death of an ex-girlfriend, his guilt over a colleague's mental break, and a serious accident that he was lucky to have survived. Not to mention the death of his wife Vanessa a few years earlier. In an effort to start over, he transfers to another hospital to work and tries to get his life back on track. One late Friday night at a pub, he runs into a young woman named Haley who works at the hospital gift shop. After an emotional conversation, Haley tells Kian that she's been kicked out by her landlord due to late rental and is terrified of becoming homeless. Seeing that she's in no shape, Kian let's her crash at his flat and tries to help her deal with her neglectful father and her own unpredictable moods. It doesn't take Kian long to realize that he is falling in love with Haley because she looks like Bea, his deceased ex-girlfriend, and is mentally fragile like his friend and colleague Jac. When Haley suddenly vanishes from his flat, Kian puts the pieces together and fearing the worst, heads out to find her. The destination ends being a place he'd thought he'd never return to, and the journey home will heal them of the past the both carry.

Dr Guy Self's youngest daughter has had major heart surgery, and her sister Zosia is pretending she doesn't care. The girl turns to her possible future step mother Jac Naylor. Will Jac be able to cope with a teenage step daughter or will she turn into a step monster? Contains scenes of a sexual and abusive nature.